I wonder if this is Closure?

This is where I should probably write about how my weekend has been "non-eventful" and how my boring college life will continue to be "uneventful," life is "okay" and the mundane world of no-news is good news should remain my creedo for the remainder of this entry. yup...should.

I'm happy. I'm so completely happy.--Not because of one random event, but maybe because finally the random inconsistencies were cleared for a breif 24 hours...my little universe, so accustumed to rainy days, saw a break of daylight and actually remebered how the rain provides for all living things to grow.

I love the smell of rain. It seems to warn you that the showers are coming, and just as it rains...you have that moment of choice: you're allowed to think of the sky darkening around you, or how this will be excellent for buisness, as everyone will want their car washed tomorrow...lol.

Well, the ex has verbalized very clearly and without use of a motor vehicle that he would like me back in his life. In the gentlest ways, I tried to let tell him I couldn't ever be a part of his life again. Trust was lost, my life choices reclaimed,and ultimately how I had a responsibility to myself and to my happiness.

What I didn't say was that "I've moved on." --Not because I haven't, but it's clear that he has not. What I tried not to do: as always, I tried desperately not to cause any signifigant "drama."--Somehow, magically--this time I succeeded.

Last night was incredible. This morning even better.

I think everyone I know and care about, is right where they want to be in this wheel...(hello again?) I hope so anyways...

So now I've been looking at this screen, letting myself be happy. The little IM box of friends is popping up...and lol, this entry must be done, because there goes J-low making the phone go ring-ring. LOL. Well, I like this. I think I'll let my little universe be happy and not worry about tommorow...lol. Yeah...no worries.