ON BLAST: So tired! Won't even write much...just "work" is harder than expected, the Labda life is very time consuming, but it makes me feel like girls trust me. i still have trust issues. i worry that i don't know how to say no. im worried about getting to work on time and sleeping. and as much as i wish i could put my heart in my back pocket, i miss him. . . a lot . . . j-lows catching on. she just told me today, "you'll be okay..." i hope so. lol. i'm so stupid. *sad* chris is right, we all want what we can't have. lol----- i hate going to bed missing him, at least in nowhere, i had distance on my side, here i don't even have that to confort me. time, i know. patience. yeah that small virtue. patience...