Self reliance is a scary thing. I mean it truly shows who you're forced to depend on.

Even leaving can't make me not want more than i need.

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Saturday, January 28, 2006

Booooo on Doctors So I have this headache that wont go away... the doctor does her thing...open your mouth, roll your neck, diets, meds, blah.... She tells me I'm "stressed," I laugh. Um I'm in grad school. I run a national campaign for my organization, and I teach 6 and 7 years...Are you kidding I'm not stressed, I'm LIVING! Anywhoo....I say "the headache" she says "Ibprophen" No computer, reading, or exposure to loudness.... WOW--I'm so glad I live in the world.... I'll be vegging out and "de-stressing" this weekend :-) 6:18 PM - 2 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

	Dr. Vinyl	screw that doctor! what you really need is to just get out party your ass off and unwind! go see a live show, watch a good movie, and above all get laid! your headaches will go away. Posted by Dr. Vinyl on Thursday, February 09, 2006 at 12:27 PM [Remove] [Reply to this]

Mandy

Thanks Doc... Your prescription worked well Posted by Mandy on Thursday, February 09, 2006 at 9:46 PM [Remove] [Reply to this]

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Thursday, March 08, 2007 Every Woman Should Know Category: Writing and Poetry A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... Enough money within her control to move out And rent a place of her own even if she never wants To or needs to... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... Something perfect to wear if the employer or date of her Dreams wants to see her in an hour... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE . a youthshe's content to leave behind.... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to Retelling it in her old age.... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..... a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black Lace bra... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE . One friend who always makes her laugh... And one who Lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .. a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone Else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... Eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a Recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .... a feeling of control over her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to fall in love without losing herself.. EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... HOW TO QUIT A JOB, BREAK UP WITH A LOVER, AND CONFRONT A FRIEND WITHOUT RUINING THE FRIENDSHIP... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... When to try harder... And WHEN TO WALK AWAY... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That she can't change the length of her calves, The width of her hips, or the nature of her parents.. EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That her childhood may not have been perfect...but its Over... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... What she would and wouldn't do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to live alone... Even if she doesn't like it... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... Whom she can trust, Whom she can't, And why she shouldn't Take it personally... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... Where to go... Be it to her best friend's kitchen table... Or a charming inn in the woods... When her soul needs soothing... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... What she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...  MAYA ANGELOU 7:10 PM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Tuesday, January 31, 2006 I paid money for that.... Current mood: Eveything feels better than yesterday So...Last checked I was sick....Doc says I'm stressed. Doc says relax...I tell her, well I'm a teacher, the kids have had the flu and strep... "Can ya test me just to be sure?"... Her response "I don't think it's necessary, but its your money." Okay....So I go home thinking, it's all in my head. that i need to relax. So I do. I veg. I forget all my plans for the weekend,....(namely because I'm exhausted!!!!) So I think I'll rest....but I'll be better right? WRONG! I go to work on Monday feeling like death ran me over with a 4x4 and then reversed over my weak body to scoff at me when I didn't die.... Doctor calls me at work on Monday after lunch...."Feeling better"--"Not really" "Um...yeah, you should be at home...you have strep throat...I'll write you a prescription" GRRRRRRRRR......SEE PEOPLE. I don't make it up. I really was sick...now aren't you glad I didn't expose you??? So, anywhooo.,...today I'm taking the day off. Drinking O.J.Doing the Dishes. cleaning my room. Watching way toooooooo much MTV and Style network. My loved ones say to take a nap, but guess what...with anti-biotics in my sytem I actually feel like I can live past tommorrow.  YAY! k--thats all. Hope everyone is enjoying their days. 2:19 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Friday, January 13, 2006 Too Funny Current mood: amused So, I'll probably get kicked off for this...but c'mon. Sense of humor at its best.... Something to consider when posting pictures....hmmmmm.... http://www.myspaceisgay.com/ 10:59 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Sunday, January 01, 2006 Happy New Year to me.... Current mood: content Blog as usual...Letters to No One 10:55 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Saturday, March 11, 2006

In 5 days.... Category: School, College, Greek In 5 days I'll either be super cool or super un-cool... I'm pretty sure thats how it'll go. Why? oh why? because I will be in New Jersey...throwing the biggest most expensive party of my life....and yeah...since I'm like the hostest with the mostest...responsibility..as to its success, etc...I'm kinda nervous.... For those of you who dont know me...I'm in a sorority. (Don't judge...yet!) Its like a good one...I promise...anyways.... As Someone I know would say, "I'm kinda a big deal"---at least on March 18th, I will be-- or i'll pretend to be.... Ever get that "Fake it till you make it," mentality? Heres hoping it works... Yeah. So this isn't a coherrent blog for anyone that doesn't know me...or doesn't read my other "real blog" but if you have questions. I'm honest, so I'll answer. Hope your weekends less productive than mine! 8:51 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

I am.... Current mood: accomplished So I have recieved many great and awe inspiring answers to my "I am" bulletein... Thanks a plenty... the paper went well....In an unfortunate turn of events my plans to see the Elusive "Matt Jones" (on my friends list for times and shows) is once again trumped by fate....perhaps I am not ment to listen to the magical tones of an acoustic guitar???   doubtful...but because I couldn't help it...nor get the song out of my head from hearing it in the car....one of many of my lyrical responses to my "I am _______" question. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You think that I go home at night Take off my clothes, turn out the lights But I burn letters that I write To you, to make you love me Yeah, I drive naked through the park And run the stop sign in the dark Stand in the street, yell out my heart To make, to make you love me I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho You may not believe in me But I believe in you So I still take the trash out Does that make me too normal for you? So dig a little deeper, cause You still don't get it yet See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix And I'll make, I'll make you love me I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess See me jump through hoops for you You stand there watching me performing What exactly do you do? Have you ever thought it's you that's boring? Who the hell are you? I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho Average every day sane psycho Supergoddess Average every day sane psycho Average every day sane psycho 8:43 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

21 Current mood: cheerful ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it. FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married. SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight. EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much. NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name = calling. ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives. TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly. THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk. FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson. SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions. EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship. NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone. 8:57 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Wednesday, February 07, 2007 Daily Rules from God for 2007 Daily Rules from God for 2007 1. Wake Up!! ..Decide to have a good day. "Today is the day the Lord hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalms 118:24 2. Dress Up!! ..The best way to dress up is to put on a smile. A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at outward appearance; but the Lord looks at the heart." I Samuel 16:7 3. Shut Up!!.. Say nice things and learn to listen. God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking. "He who guards his lips guards his soul." Proverbs 13:3 4. Stand Up!!... For what you believe in. Stand for something or you will fall for anything.. "Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..." Galatians 6:9-10 5. Look Up!!... ..To the Lord. "I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13 6. Reach Up!!... ..For something higher. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding.  In all your ways, acknowledge Him, And He will direct your path." Proverbs 3:5-6 7. Lift Up!!... ..Your Prayers. "Do not worry about anything; instead PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING." Philippians 4:6 Send this to the people you care about. I thought this was mighty special, just like you. Pass this on and brighten someone's day, and remember: God answers Knee-Mail. .. 4:03 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 Who's the new Top 4... As promised: I'm trying to change up my top favorited........ So In Position Numero Uno: Is Sexy Hotline opperator,  Lusiousssss.....aka my Sister Cool Beans. ANd dare any of you creeps talk to her I'll find you and then tell the big strong guys I live with to kick your butt!!!! In Position Number Dos: Is My Baby Dora.... and very hot mama. These girls are seriously Family to me already, and I miss them all dearly.....Hugs and kisses ya'll. Come back and rescue me!!!! In Position 3 is My other very sexy and super talented Sister. USC or Stanford.....oh wait....UT Austin baby!!!! She'll be rocking that burnt orange soon. Boyz don't stand a chance. So Go for it, she'll knock you down herself,....and if that doesn't work, theres my brother looking down a barrel.....hmmmm. Yeah, don't go there. Finally, in position 4, is my very sweet and very underage boyfriend....Okay he's not really my boyfriend,  but he was totally awesome when I stayed in TX and will be a great guy to any girl lucky enough to have him....(See kid looking out for you ;-)) Anyways, rumor has it that I may beback  in God's country this summer...only an hour outside of Austin, so maybe ya'll can keep me posted!!!! Love you my top four, and besitos to all ya'll reading out there in my little universe! 9:24 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

The Coveted Top 8 Current mood: indescribable Category: MySpace So if you noticed, my "Friends" list just got cut in half.....Those added based on looks, band request, and boredom at 4 am have now been deleted, and I can honestly say you have survived the "first cut" if 1. I know you in person (and yes you are a friend), 2. You're a band I have seen in person and like, or 3. I met you on myspace, and we actaully relay emails on a weekly basis. Congrats I know you're thrilled.... If you have not met the above requirements, I'm guessing you're not reading this and/or don't care. If you are, and do... Send me a message, and stop being a stranger. Finally, I think I've decided to explain who my top 8 are as I change them.... So without delay my top 8 and their greatness. #1 Rob....Hot, and "not so available"--its his birthday, and in honor of that,,,,yes, he lands the coveted #1 spot....at least for a week. (And I know he never gets on myspace,  so he won't mind when he's bumped down.... He's my roomie (The football player) and I luv him! #2 Mr. September....Hot, and "not so available"---well to every one but me......Meet my other roomie, (the bouncer). He is my real world wake up call and I luv him much, so as "family" he'll prob stay up here for a while...except he's loved by so many others, his top 8 status is nothing new to him. # 3 Ben. Hot, and "not so available"--well he is, but I'd like to pretend he's not. Ladies, meet my future husband. Oh yes, one day he will be mine. Until such day he's one of my best friends. Living in Laramie Wyoming, he is "Hotness wasted in Podunk" #4. Ah the Coolest boss ever. She's hot, taken, and very busy. #5 My bestest and only girlfriend in all of Texas. Soon to be bride, and very proud mommy, she too is hot and taken. #6 My most Favorite drinking buddy. Hot, and Boys if you're not quick, very soon may be taken....hmmm. You'll have to hit her myspace for those details. #7 Aye que eres mala, its Juliana.....Hot and Taken, she is my right side, always by my side, Sexy Sorror Sixteen. #8 Last, so not least, is my salvation and escape when all goes wrong, my bestest buddy J.....who, alas, is taken as well..... So there it is,  my top 8, not based on sexy-ness, or randomness, but the true friends in my life for the moment, who don't care too much about their myspace status.. When I change it up again...I'll do new bios, and then you can all see what I see in you all. Kisses and hugs, -M 11:56 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Saturday, October 14, 2006 And I remember way back when.... Close your eyes...And go back... Before the Internet or the MAC Before semi automatics and crack Before SEGA or Super Nintendo... Way back... I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk. Red light, Green light. Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on. Mother May I? Red Rover Hula Hoops Running through the sprinkler Happy Meals Wait... Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, ARE YOU AFFRAID OF THE DARK! and who could forget Snick, Fat Albert, Road Runner, Smurfs, Picture Pages, G-Force, He-Man, Wonder Woman, Voltron and the Thundercats! Scooby Doo Underoos Playing Dukes of Hazard Catchin' lightning bugs in a jar Christmas morning... Your first day of school Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses Climbing trees Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers Jumpin' down the steps Jumpin' on the bed Pillow fights Runnin ' till you were out of breath Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt Being tired from playin' Your first crush... Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7UP" in the classroom Remember that? I'm not finished yet... Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school Class Field Trips When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there. When a quarter seemed like a fair allowance, and another quarter a Miracle. When any parent could discipline any kid, or feed him or use him to carry groceries, and nobody, not even the kid, thought a thing of it. When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool. When being sent to the principal's office was nothing compared to the fate that awaited a misbehaving student at home. Basically, we were in fear for our lives but it wasn't because of drive by shooting s, drugs, gangs, etc. Our parents and grandparents were a much bigger threat! And some of us are still afraid of em! Didn't that feel good, just to go back and say, "Yeah, I remember that!" I want to go back to the time when... Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo" Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!" "Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest. Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly" Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends. Being old, referred to anyone over 20. The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties. Nobody was prettier than Mom Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the amusement park. Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true. Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare" Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles. The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team. Water balloons were the ultimate, ultimate weapon. Older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest protectors. If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED!!! 1:18 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Sunday, September 03, 2006 Top Divas.... Hey Ladies....(Uh-huh?); Hey Ladies....(Uh-huh?) Introduce yourselves.....Introduce Yourselves. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ My Top Ladies are none other than the Divas of Chaos..... Las Mujeres Latinas.....Californias best.... Lambda Ladies 7:45 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Monday, March 27, 2006 Fear me world... Current mood: BETTER I'm on Spring Break! Hee Heee...and I have learned how to put images on this damn thing.... Most of my close guy friends have been spammed with topless girls just cause I could... But this is the last day I'll waste time trying to do the myspace thing...ITS SPRING BREAK!!!! I should be toplesss, or dancing on top of a bar...or something. If you know me, you know how to get me....   8:33 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Tuesday, March 21, 2006 NY March Madness So the weekend was hot...as were the DJ's....almost enough said. but...I have two words, and one shot for you people "Hot House..." not the way its spelled or how it taste...but damn...good stuff... When the pics come in, I'll post em up,...you can see me look like a girl with a mic...yay! All in all a success. if I do say so myself...and I do. besitos friends. 5:39 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Where the Hell did you go? Current mood: contemplative As my summer is well on its way, some concerned freinds have checked the "journal" to try to gather where in the hell I went. You're right, I'm gone. New destination to be determined. Here's the Haps: House Sitting in Corrales: May 27-June 3 Baby Sitting in Corrales: June 3-14 Florida: June 15-21 Road Trip to San Diego, and then on to..... (it's official, I'm going): June 21-25. In Albuquerque June 25-30: Plans to be determined Road Trip to Las Cruces/El Paso: June 30- July July 3rd:  Warp Tour: Las Cruces NM July 4th: Family July 5th - July 30th: Plans to be determined. My "El Paso" crew promises, "a very large Margarita," a chance to practice "cage and bar dancing", as well as a renewl of my "pimp licence"--which I have been told is not under revoction, as previously thought ;-) July 31st is Pipsqueaks birthday. August 1st I must return to Albuquerque, have some living arrangement, get my stuff out of storage and pretend to resume a normal NON-Summer life.... August 8th: First Day Back at Work---BOOO. Finally: Sept Something: Mr. Boots comes back into town. "Wake Me Up When September Ends" Someone wrote recently: Sometimes absence is the sincerest form of flattery. Here's hoping. 1:44 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

After the spiral of fears and what nots... I'm left with what Someone once said, "I'm smarter than you. I'm faster than you. And I practice while you sleep!" Hope you're wide awake, and don't mind me borrowing this. Since I can't have you, I'll be keeping it for awhile. ;-)

Life changes via voice mail? Not my preferred method of communication but effective. *sigh* what can ya do? Lol! Me? I'm planning to travel. New circumstances call for new and far more innovative ways of thinking.
To those who have followed my garble in the past month and know my lifestyle is changing to that of an L1, i shall re-iterate my summer reading womps. Further, given afforementioned voice mail my travels are being broadened. Therefore, do try to plan any goodbyes prior to july? I may not be here past the first, and again voice mail is a horrible way to say goodbye.

Could someone wait ten years to have one day with the person they loved? ... I suppose it does depend on the day.
Personally i've gone one week from my kitty and its one week too long.
In other news, the summer reading i'm doing is successfully scaring of and simultaneously encouraging my law school venture.
I can say conclusively, that i wish i was armed with a record player and better jazz

A threat of colicky horses, and a lingering feeling that i ought gave known better. And so ends day one. ~.~

With very few hours left for the notion of sleep, i must admit it is forced now.
My body aches and my only comfort is how peaceful and innocent my cat lays beside me; and, how i would hate to wake her.
Hopefully tomorrow i'll awake to my week outside my city and life and grasp the Clarity that waits so patiently for me.

In two days time i have read 2/3 of a book, unfortunately the afforementioned literature has nothing to do with my required summer reading of some 37 books by august.

Upgraded to the head table at the wedding this saturday held far less excitement than expected and far less services, yet the company and sheer honor was delightful.
Seeing the love and happiness in two people is overwhelmingly contagious and makes one forget there is sometimes more? Yet after this saturday i'm still in my rose colored world feeling Breathless
At least in a Corrine Bailey Rae kinda way. ~.~

Reading 32 books this summer. "suggested reading list"i'm on book one and already sleepy.

True story: Retiring from a wedding rehearsal for friends, the lounge singer in the courtyards

The rain pours down like a forewarning this evening. Expect this. Lots of this.
Tut tut. It looks like rain.
The excitement continues to build up and still i do everything to stay go the moment.
As the wind blows i'm seeing everything that once seemed so permanent so vulnarable.
Lightning crashes and lights up the reality of it all. Everything is tempral.

Letter of resignation is in
With time off coming these next few weeks couldn't better

In my Marine's words, "like we never missed a beat."
My poor j is still dying and i sent him to recover in a hotel bed. We'll call today to see how it goes?
In politics, I missed most of a presidential candidates appearance last night. But considering my vote is based on my own little rationale, leno appearances doesn't do much to pursuade me. But then again? We are talking about america.

After a day of traveling and soul bearing i law awake in the hotel bed in denver. More efficient than a priest, i found myself confessing my past life to J in the miles we passed.
The sordid details of past choices went by like mile markers and without judgement or words, the miles passed

J has made the journey from four hours to nowhere and is now familiar with the notorious new mexican green chile.
Comfortably satiated he now has a sleeping bag to call a bedroom as jealousies will not allow him a place in my bedroom.
Like a champ, he takes it all in stride and saves me from a unmistakable challenge at the beginning of our road trip.
Tomorrow denver, friday Casper Wy and my Marine!
Lets hope they get leno in wyoming i hear its supposed to be worth the watch.
I'm traveling my little universe today, drop me a line if you'd like a postcard.

My house didn't get clean, my laundry didn't get done. But my friends were seen and our lives were shared.
Don't You miss sharing?

Happy Friday

I wish I could

unzip my skin

and take it off
            Just to take a walk

but I can’t do it....

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Its amazing how the small stuff has such great emotional impact.
The little things that makes you smile: a cup of overpriced coffee, a rainbow on your way home, kudos from someone you may or may never truly know.
Happy May day little universe!