I am such a Leo!

Leo July 23-Aug. 22 Feelings of jealousy and possessiveness stir up a host of emotional turmoil now, especially if you are trying to control emotions that cannot be controlled. Be very wary of engaging in a power struggle, either with someone in your immediate environment or with some aspect of your own inner nature. Try to talk about it with a friend or write about it in your journal. But move the energy slowly. There's a lot that needs to come out and it could take some time.

Um...yeah...*sad laugh.

Okay so I miss something and someone that I don't even know I ever had. And blah! My "inner nature" IS in a conflict. One part says move on, while the other is like hold on? Lol--then theres the tummy, saying, hmmm pizza. LOL. Try to make light of a heavy situation, I guess. LOl, funniest thing is, I know you think I'm nuts!!!! HAHA, so do I.

Do people want the truth? Truth, all out in the open? LOL--me too, but not gonna happen. Closest thing to truth I got right now is that people don't approve of my "un-lady like behavior" ; shaaaaaa.....what-ever. So I've decided to keep everything between, me, and my journal. Mitotas never read this anyways. Oh, well.

I sometimes feel like I'm waiting on a call that will never come, you know? I s'pose it's the call I want to come....

And I don't where you went when you left me but
It says here in the water, you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow

One hand on the trigger of the telephone
Wonderin when the call comes, when you say it's all right
You got your heart right

I do now. Its all so clear it sucks and it hurts.

The ex has moved on, and I'm so cool with it. C's in love again, and I couldn't be happier. Playa Playa lies when he says he's faithful, but the lord knows he's loyal, to his one and only prada girl, and she's the bomb for keeping him around. J-low's got her man, and I think her man has her more than he'll ever know. J's doing the long distance thing with his Arizona girl, and pledging will help him get through the distance--(hang in there kidd, be seeing you in some red soon).

Me, I wish like hell,i could tell my heart to shut up.

On the upside: hence why I'm writing (yet again!!!): INTERNET is now back on my computer!!!! YAY!!!!

But people that luv you call, as my phone goes...ring ring...

C's quote of the day:

"A warm body laying next you is over-rated"

---Says the man who can't sleep with anyone in his bed!!! Weird!