Stop!

Tonight has been a whirl wind of emotions. I have really been flustered and calmed down by the most random of things. Well not random—it’s my life. From sunrise to Moonset, my job is never done.

Anyways, so I’m driving home tonight, and listening to music, and it seems the universe wanted to throw the crazy “girl in tears” genre at me this evening. Avril Lavigne’s, Happy Ending, Ashley Simpsons’ Tangled, and some others as well, but those were the last two that seemed to come on as I hit my drive home.

So—you would think these songs, would bring out a “I hate boyz” or “that’s SO TRUE” or even a  “my lifes so pathetic” response, but surprisingly it didn’t. Surprisingly, I’m in the oddest mood.

I’ve been thinking. My world has been, well if not complicated, emotional.

And while I’m slightly inclined to apologize for my emotions, and feelings, I’m going to stop myself. Not because I’m not sorry that my emotional involvement within situations can’t possibly be construed as complicated, but rather because my emotions are what make me

----urrr---distracted by J-low making the phone go ring ring- grrrr…yes, Grrrrr-----

Where was I? Grrr---have no idea!!!! And now. Now I’m tired, and slightly upset again—and my IM is going off NOW!!!---and this just isn’t going to get written tonight---*sigh

I’m signing off, there’s only one person that I want to talk to right now, and could make things better, and well, that’s just not going to happen.  Want it too, but, well, yeah….Going to be signing off. At the moment, a little bitter at the world for not letting me have five minutes of an emotion. Grrr, goodnight universe

PS.  The only thing I wanted to say, was, *sigh---I’d rather have someone in my life as a friend, then not have them at all.

And now like a looser, I have two boys IM’ing me, and rather than feel great, I’m turning in the “pimp card”—I’m gonna cry now—held out for I don’t even know how long

And there it is. The tears. I can’t even type…..sorry…