Social Restriction never was this fun...

Good Morning! It's 3:45pm, but since I have just showered, I feel like it's morning.

Recent events are so mind boggling! WELL where to begin???

Let's start with the gripes and then we'll move to the good times?

Gripes: Trust  No-ONE! A sad but very true fact. I'm so done. So very very done. People you think you can trust, you can't; regardless of the bonds or years you think you share.  So whatever. I've been without friends before. I still have my boy J, Four is being really good to me (despite my not deserving it), and despite C's nature, I know at least I can depend on him to keep his mouth shut. Well, regardless--I guess if I thought I was being shady before, lifes about to take a crazy little turn.

But before we go there: I must say I was getting far too confortable, living on other peoples schedules, but I gotta admit that going to work for me right now.

Eg: J-low dictates my on campus time, as I really will let myself wrap up in Lambdaness and computer email returning.

Eg: My sisters (outside of J-low) hold my soical life down. They do that "Sister thang" with me on the weekends. It's now to the point where I forgot what being single and "out with the girls" could really be like. Learning each weekend is a nice temporary distraction from life.

Eg. LOL, every boy in my life dictates their flow within my life. Including Playa playa and C. --Food, or the promise of other girls usually does it though, lol?

Well, I'm  cool with this and "whatevering" life right now, and it seems to be rewarding me.

If I ignore friends hurting me, other friends are ready to pick me up, and without missing a beat, I'm out their enjoying life in ways aforementioned friends wouldn't have let me enjoy.

Actually, other random "closed door, open window" experiance: every once in a while I'm reminded, I'm single. Shall we go there now? Well, real quick--

Last night was so random! Met an old friend. He was my first experiance of  "fraternity row."  Yeah--and like most fraternity men, lol--he had no interest in me, but in my best friend at the time. Yeah well, what can you do?

LOL--I guess, you wait three years and say yes when he ask you to dance.Then you exchange numbers, and ask him out to the club later. When he shows up (to your surprise), you dance some more. You reassure him the "big black guy" that was dancing with you earlier is not going  to "kick his ass." (LOL) Then (I don't think you should do this-but) desert him at the club, with the quickest goodbye, because your girls are running through the rain without you.  Then once done running, you explain to your girls Nothing. Absolutlely nothing. Why? because, we have learned: Trust no one.

But if this is the route you pursue, this kinda night creates the perfect night. Perfect because,  things that are real can now be left alone, and what is perceived can now be wondered about by mitotas and their wild imaginations.

Hmmm. Maybe I'm learning???

Now, before ya'll jump: Perceptions: we've learned this mirror game right? I guess the only one who will know "whats really going on" (as Playa playa put's it)--are the people not worried about appearances.

Trust. Pretty sacred thing I've learned about in the past few days. Some people still have it, others, have lost mine. When you have trust, you can believe "it'll happen" and smile knowing it will--when you don't, well, you can't really beleive anything, can you? But still, you smile, and don't interfere with what perceptions have the power to do.

Life gets easier by the day.