Completely Diluted

So, I love my friends. One of my sorority sisters came by to visit me in my desolate little world and might really be bringing hope back to me. We talked about life, love, and me moving back. It might all be happening sooner than expected. And I’m really excited.

Afterwards, I watched my baby sister perform in a band concert. She rocked! I’m so proud of her! I never knew anyone in my family could be so musically inclined.

Then two more sorors call me, and they both give me their precautionary love, knowing I’d given my heart away.

Then well, I turn on the internet doorway to all sorts of emotions. Confusion, loneliness, questions, no real joy tonight. So, in the midst of tears, I call my guy friend C, and he just tells me, go ahead and cry and I do. As he’s telling me it’s all okay. I want to believe him. Didn’t I say I’d be okay? My other guy friend J calls. They both tell me they love me, and I tell them I love them back. I hang up, and I feel better. I just want to be loved. Maybe not today, but eventually… I remind myself of what I said yesterday.

Someone feels exactly the same way about you, the way you feel about her. I know someone must feel exactly the same way about me, the way I feel about him.

Old 80’s movie plays in the background, boy tells girl A, “the minute you stop believing there is no one out there for you, its all over isn’t it?” They kiss.

Girl B is watching from the sidelines, she’s his someone, and in this movie it’ll be 40 more minutes, and heartache until he realizes that.