With everything going on...

LOL, well it looks like it'll all be calming down for a while.
and honestly I'm relieved. The pressure is off, and from now until later, I can breathe....
BUT....
can I talk more about this guy?
well, maybe just a bit....

Instead of waking up cranky, I woke up thinking. of him....and I keep forcing myself to smile, despite the distance, despite the realities....but here I am...smiling.

I asked him yesterday, if it was all real?
Did we really meet?
Is he really calling me?
Am I really supposed to wait....?
Everyone knows deployment last longer than it should....?

(Great, another reason to hate Bush....he's ruining my personal life, lol )

*Yawn. Don't know how or if I'll explain it to HIM.
I avoided "that" conversation all together.

But you know something that doesn't make me feel bad?

I told HIM, I would have more free time, and that we should hang out....you know what HE said?
HE said,
"We'll see"

I don't want a "we'll see"....I don't know if it's any better than a "I miss you," but at least the latter implies he cares.

So there it is, a five mile away "we'll see" versus a "I miss you from Mezul"---great.
Yes J, Prophet, Marine, I know what you're all thinking...
"Where do you find these guys!?!?!?!"

*SMILES* This one is from Alaska....lol.