God, I'm sorry...

Wow, I'm a freaking idiot. I've been so caught up in the petty, the drama, the -ish, that I've lost sight of some of the closest people of my life--
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Prophet,
 I know you read this, and that's why I'm writing it here. I'm sorry. I'm an idiot,
I should have written right away. I should have bugged you for a number to call, just so I can say I'm sorry for your loss in person, just a voice of someone that is still here for you.
I am still here for you, and I'm sorry to bring it up. I've prayed for E and your family, and you are always in my prayers.

Love you, --
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C-
You never read this, and I'm glad. But I've done yet again what I promised I never would do again. I put my sorority life in front of my own.
I'm sorry I picked up the phone
We will be proud of our organizations till we die, but I hope that they never bring on such a demand that we will forget the people we were before them. to this day, I'm proud to say, we were friends before we were greek. 
Oh, and since I'm being honest, just so you know, please don't ever apologize for a year ago...That single moment changed my life. Each day is a painful reminder of the poor choice I made that night, and it only hurts more to know you wish you had stayed silent.
I love you, and you know that.
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J-
I know lately there's this weird thing going on with you. Call it a gut feeling, call it knowing you for 10 years of my life. Who cares I should have called.
Something is going on, and I haven't even called you.
 I'll do my best to put it in one of  your analogies, "Your life is this baseball game, that I don't have a ticket to go see"

I'm sorry honey. Its not about you holding my purse, its about us holding each other when life gets ruff. I lost sight of that for 1 week too long.

Thank God you know me well enough to not hold it against me...i love you.
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Marine;

Hey buddy, I tried, I'm sorry. Damn phone keeps dying. Next phone call is all YOU. I'll be connected to a damn charger if need be,  but I miss you.  you know I love you too. besides, birthday boy, it's getting one year closer  to my wedding ceremony...lol.
love you
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Mr. Someone,
On the up-shot that you might check in...I don't even know if your email is valid? Did you recieve my post card?
Hmmm...but tonight....Have I become so shallow that we have nothing left to say to one another? It seems all thats left to reiterate is that I do want you in my life.
As I said earlier, I'm done with complications. You make me happy, so I want you to stay. Not knowing you anymore, not being able to talk at lengths end about anything, makes me sad ( missing that), so I'm letting that go.
If you become the guy I love, for no reason other than once upon a time you "got me"--then I'm okay with that.
You have the power to make me drop everything...and believe it or not, I'm glad one guy does. Please don't abuse it, without complication,  I couldn't stop it then, and I realize now I'd only be kidding myself if I said I could now, so why fight it.
lol, in lyrical prose:
 "Do you suppose that I would come running?....you know I would"
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Fork--
honey, if you read this. Your big sister loves you. Tell spatulla and the butterknife I love them too. I have no excuse for not being in your life 24/7. I miss you. I love you. I owe you a concert if I ever get money.