The Predicatable, and the Not So Predictable

The Predictable:

C would pick me up from the bus stop and take me home

That the oncoming next few weeks/months would be difficult

I was going to end things with "HIM" soon due to the lack of commitment

The Not So Predictable

That my truck would be just "gone" when I got home

That my keys to my house (left for friend to come feed the dogs) would also be "gone"

That as soon as I opened the gate to check in on the dogs, that they would run away, ending up "gone"

The fight me and HIM would end up with me staying at His house (and me actually typing on his computer now) making me feel like reality is "gone"

How I'm coping:

Quite simple, I made the right phone calls and located the truck, in the mechanics shop, leaving me with a vehicle...

Another phone call later, I locate my friend who apologizes profusely and brings me my house keys

Sorrors, who back me in my need to breathe, are volunteering left and right now to keep me motivated, and are succeeding. I feel refreshed, motivated, and prepared for the oncoming months.

Now-HIM, well, we fought as usual and the outcome is always as complicated....In summation, it was me wanting commitment, Him wanting a benefited friendship,an acknowledgement of a loose loose scenario resulting in me waking up this morning to him kissing me goodbye before he heads off to work.....yeah, confusing much.

All I know, is that my trigger has been pulled. Yes, J. I'm done.

In the words of Ms. V.--I can't keep going on this "emotional roller coaster."

Undoubtedly, I love to easliy. Its what makes me a great friend, a great sorror, and probably the passionate lover that my Someone misses.

But heres the "conclusion" or "descision" I've made....

Time apart will do my soul good. You can't be broken up and keep making out with the guy right?

(LOL--Says her!)

....HE came in, he's asleep...and before I go to class, I'm tempted to kiss him goodbye.

willpower....yeah we all know how much of that I have--

bottom line,  everything and nothing changed?