Final Today....

So I'm at Zim, Ms. V. took my phone...working on the Final that is still freaking me out.

The debate within me rages on...to go or not to go to Alaska....

Are you insane says the little voice in my head....

If Ms. V finds a way, I'm going...no money, no guarantees, but, I'll be on that flight...

My poor guy though, he really wants to pay for EVERYTHING,...and it bothers him SO much for me to spend my own money on just the ticket...

If Ms. V, gets the ticket, I know it will be forcing his hand...but I'm going to see Ms. V's Family....yeah, sure, that's why I'm going....LOL

In other news, I really needed a Friend last night. 700 dollars lost yeah, could have used you C....but I'll wait till I'm "forgiven" --
I guess.--
Really could have used the help.

Which THANK YOU, My Marine, called as though thru instinct, and settled me down.

Poor NEW GUY!!!! (We'll really have to come up with a name for him)
Me and Ms. V, call him Mr. Boots....long but short story. But it's fitting....so maybe. unless I change it, lol

So poor MR. Boots. I think we had the closest thing to a "first fight" as we could for this being an extreemly new, extreemly not commited, extreemly nothing type relationship....
He doesn't want me to go into financial jepordy, I don't want him to go into financial jepordy, it's like the war of "but if I spend money on you, it must mean I care..." fighting "I will never stop caring about you, please don't spend a dime"
both ways....
Most divorces end in financial struggle.
Well, add this to ME freaking the hell out over a final, and having a THIRD PARTY in control of both of out finances  and feeling out of control....yeah,
plus the intensity of it all....
him leaving, this fealing like a one time shot....
yeah. it got tense....
(if you ever read this baby....cuz i know you're crazy kool, and look up all kinds of -ish up on me, lol, I'm still sorry)

okay, well, back to the damn final...

UPDATE:
It's 9:12 PM My time....Ms. V is doing her thing at the bars....and where am I? Doing my damn Final! Still! Ridiculous!!!!!!
Yes, when this is done, I'm drinking....A LOT!
I am in the I don't give a damn, where are my heels, lets do this Coyote Ugly style and look for the nearest bar to dance on!!!! UGH!!!! must be done in 20!!!!

Oh p.s.
1 I ned to get the Notorious Cherry Bombs....
2 Mr. Someone, your blog dates are scarrying me, and yes I do still check in on you...I miss you too.
3. Mr. Boots. HAHA, if you're reading this I'd be dying but if you are....why aren't you out enjoying your last weeks of freedom??? hmmmm????  It's friday, don't be lame, smile...know that I miss you more than anything, and yeah....8.2....
I really should go up.....miss you.