Rainy Days, Crazy nights

Okay, I so deserve tonight; and I'm going all out. Oh yes....the man I love and respect is telling me to go get crunk, get laid, and be happy. Of course he is kidding, but it is the thought that counts ;-)

Cuz Ray is taking me to places I've never been and it promises to be wild. C says I shouldn't wake up till my National Board meeting tommorow. It's my birthday; so I'm thinking why not? No better way to start the day *12 am to be exact* then with a little scandal.

In all reality though, I still hold to being responsible with myself this evening. It's not like Ray ever lets me go home with anyone, but tonight I at least know me and him won't have that discussion this time 'round.

Friends seem on the up. My 14yr old goddess of a sister is continuing her "Birthday month"--which makes me very happy. And I--I am getting a little older in an hour and a half. To be twenty-three? Where are all my Blink-182 Freinds when I need them?

i guess nobody really does like you when you're 23?

Sadly, in this one moment I have realized I am spending yet another birthday away from the people I love....Yes, I'll be with family....but the people that love me, and don't have to????the Ladies who throw me surprise parties that I don't go to, the guys that take me out to Village Inn, the guy that never really calls but always has a gift....(no pressure C--you just have a good track record)--*Sigh, but I'll make up for that next weekend too.

Plans are in full swing for traveling...trucks checked out, boxes are packed, my emotions are in check, so I think I'm ready....On the other hand, you ever get the feeling like, you know you have everything ready to go, but the universe is just dying to throw something at you? Well, it's a new Lambda Manda year, and as C says, Worrying is like a rocking chair, it occupies your time, but gets you nowhere.

So listen up...as the clock turns midnight- y'all, tip your glass, make a wish, and think of me. I'll have you in my hearts...till I write as a 23 yr old...The summers not really over.....Besos.