Epiphany

Well, as I wake up at 2pm recovering gracefully from yet another "night out"--I am shocked to receive a phone call from my un-named yet still present "man." Yeah, not anymore. I guess.

I'm thinking of that comic guy from the Simpsons "SHORTEST RELATIONSHIP EVER" --LMAO.

J-low should be calling me shortly to receive the DL, and probably to try to console me, yet once again I need very little consolation. When you know "ends" are innevitable, you don't put much stock into tommorow.

Thats another thing. I'm never telling anyone--anyone--ever again about who I'm with from now on. It seems everytime my romantic life gets public, boom it's over within 48 hours. This has happened twice this summer.  Yup, ten years from now, when I'm starting to show because I'm 4 months pregnant and everyones like wow who's the dad, I'm going to be like, I don't know what you're talking about. lol.

Perhaps I'm just consoling myself. Truth is, I knew it was coming, I just didn't think it would come this fast. Thats actually the one line that summed that whole "relationship"(?????) up. It came fast, before I was ready, left faster before I knew we had begun. If it had begun? What counts as starting a relationship? 

Does kissing a guy mean you're dating, No. Does being exclusive with a guy mean you're seeing one another. No--Personally I just think thats being classy and hygenic to say the least. Does a guy telling you he loves you count as starting a relationship? No-sadly I know this. hmmm. Mutual agreement maybe? Blah, I  don't know.  

I mean I was always seeing other guys. Hell last night I was shady and I know it. I mean when your girl (my girl, J-low a.k.a. Jimmney Cricket, to be exact) has to take away your cell phone and say, NO, no meeting other guys, I mean I guess thats a sign right? I'm just meant to be single right now I guess.

Speaking of signs. Virgos were going to detatch two days ago. I read it on AOL. How true, how true sometimes how the stars or some nuts making 7.50 an hour to make up crap can be so accurate sometimes?

You know Someone once told me he was cursed with the fact that girls he wanted to be friends with, always wanted more. I think I have the spin off or reflection of that curse in the fact that every guy I hook up, loves me as a person, and wants to be just friends. Hmmmm...maybe I'm a bad kisser? No--lets be honest that's so not it.  Cocky maybe, but if I were to take a survey...well, ne-ways.

Perhaps this is the universe yet again working its great mysterious ways, trying to inform me I don't need a man in my life. This I know.

Hey, Universe, I get it. I am a perfectly smart, classy, beautiful and  independent female! Fine! Stop throwing guys my way then!!!! I like kissing too much!!!!

Haha, well I guess it's bound to happen. I see the fate of one if my girlfreinds becoming my own. Living my life with boys on the sidelines. *sigh* wow, ever get those revelations? Where you've seen this lesson before charted out by someone else? And thats just the case. Someone told me....Life over here, in this pyramid, no room for relationships, just the important things in life, and way way over here, there's the opposite sex....not together, way apart-- for now, until they intersect, maybee....at a later time...just not now...

Yup, okay. Fine universe, you win. I'll do boyz way over there and stop making them a cornerstone of my little pyramid in the hierarchy of needs and wants.

This is why my sorrors date guys in NYC. Way across the country, guys can't be everything in your life, right? Well, I'll let you know how it goes...no tears yet, and I don't forsee any coming. You know, (lol) if i know the universe, by tommorow, I'll be stupid over another guy, yet again. Like I've said, I love being in love. This time however....I'm gonna stretch summer out, play by the summer rules; whats good for right now, is good for right now, unitl it isn't good anymore, nothing personal, no hard feelings, just fun. Boyz  now leaving the pyramid....go way over there to your box across the table or on a top shelf.