You might be obsessing over someone now. The thing to remember is that sometimes it's healthy to share your feelings with someone you like. Other times, however, it's best to keep your desires to yourself. Whether you are concerned with being socially appropriate or not, make certain that you know what your boundaries are and that you don't step over them. The stars and J-Low, seem to insist that I know my boundaries. Jeesh! LOL.....this is why you keep things private. Excert from: Two Can Play at That Game: "Never tell your girlfriends whats really going on. They will just amplify the situation... Keep your cool."
Just when I thought things were getting bad, people really do pull through.
I'm already starting to feel better. J-low stopped by to check on me. I've had sisters call me just to make sure I'm okay. And I'm like, "It was just a 24 hour bug, I'm okay, promise."
Best thing yet today. Oh, besides Chicano Studies class being cake and the bomb?
Best thing ever? So. I have this weird desire to listen to John Mayer? Which is weird right because I haven't listened to him in like two weeks. But, in particuliar, I wake up wanting to hear this song...Only heart. I have the beat in my head. So....I go to open my lab-top. Something I haven't unpacked since I'm back. And What do I find? A note from my baby sister. Nothing fancy. Just a note saying she loves me, on the back of some sheet music. Simple. Real. Made my day. Better yet, made every mistake I've made just fade away...just that simple. And I think to myself. Wow. I hope I have that impact on her. or someone. I think to myself, it's the little things. the 60 seconds you take out of your day just to let someone know you care.
Well, I'm feeling well now. Health wise. 4 hours later, right? Everythings temporary.
Listening to JM now. CD a friend burned me. Forgot how much I enjoyed his stuff. Why I ever enjoyed it...he seems real.
I'm toying with the idea of writing to JM and just be like "hey, I appreciate yourwork. You seem real."--I wonder if he would respond? If I ever get his address I'll let you all know how it goes.
Well, I like JM because it seems like real emotion, contradictory or over the top, but raw emotion seems to come from him in the most eloquent of ways...a guitar riff, his melody, a perfect verse to capture something as simple as the weather or as complicated as the storyline of a heart...
*sigh. So, I'm going to enjoy JM now.
But, once again...to anyone that reads this. I appreciate you. I appreciate the fact that you care enough about me to check in on my boring life. to try to figure out my kinks and oddities. lol. To laugh at me, or my not so funny jokes and metaphors.
I miss my 14 yr old goddess and her crew
M, my 14 yr old crush. C, girl who's trying--maybe a little too hard. A-i never met you, but you seem great, and have influenced me by the way you are a friend. and J--I miss you.Miss you tons. Hope everythings going well in love land. Send me a postcard. I think I'm kicked out of that local for a while. lol.
I'm amazed...listening to JM. Gonna enjoy this moment. This weird feeling of being quiet and okay; being okay with just friends and no commitment.... One of these days I'd like to just have a bottle of wine, share it with someone, and just listen to JM. I wonder if that would be any fun? LOL, I think so..."Someday baby"
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