More tired than buzzed

Sleepy, so sleepy,
miss C, I know it hurts me more than him.
thats why he isn't calling, or maybe he's scared i won't pick up.
i won't. i miss my friend
went out with my marine,
saw the ex's best friends. an occurance ussually accompanied when i'm with the marine, odd.
meaning, every time i'm with the marine, i run into my ex's friends, very odd
non-intentional, swear.
18 yr old boy from work was supposed to meet me tonight but he was probably smarter than me and realized we have work in oh lets see, 6 hours, omg, i have to go to bed!!!
i miss him. awwww
#12 is prego!!!! omg everyone is starting "real" life
me, i can barely handle a dog. lol
we get a dog in two weeks yay.
bought an awesome costume for halloween
hmmm wonder if i'll use it.
i'm so buzzed as i write this....
she's always buzzing like neon, neon, lol
wonder how that guy is doing, hmmmm
don't really care to be honest, i mean outside of the friendship realm i guess,
awww, i miss C. and I'm mad at 18 yr old, but not really,
 lol
18 yr old is cute, he is so shy,
i wonder what the hell i'm gonna do about that boy,
*sigh, doesn't matter,
maybe it's because i'm tipsy, but
does it really matter what you do when your heart belongs to someone else?
i guess we'll find out
lol, esp. after a certain girls initiation date,
OMG i'm still so mad, and still so hurt, and yet i can't stand this,
lol
well not going to cry, going  to pass out
dear higher powers let me wake up and be able to go and function at work!!!! lol. ha ha
mmmmm...candy :)

awww....i want my C's shirt, i just want to be close in that go do whatever kinda way, but just let me wear your shirt, and your cologne, and sleep in your bed...yeah...lol
yeah....wow....
boys are dumb....
drinking
1 rum and coke, 1 long island
ate dinner, ate alot,
using boys specifically 18 yr old to get over this C thing, not good, dependency!!!!
:)
okay sleep, must sleep, bye, go away shhhhhhh