cubicle-ness

so robbing the cradle? hmmm, dunno, every girl i talk to says just go for it,
i think women think men are objects just for our emotional consumption.
something to be used up and burnt out on....
kinda like the cigarettes i've been putting out three fourths done, *sigh
he's only 18 and thats a lot to put on a guy  
but maybe thats what i need
a slightly older and more "legal" version of my 14 year old crush--
lol, i guess being with someone younger has always been a bonus to me, because it's like, i don't have to remember how complicated "grown up life' really is.
lol--i heard he got caught by his mom for smoking cigarettes, how cute!!!
ne-ways we exchange numbers tomorrow, lol, i guess like always I'll let myself see where that goes.
J's calling and consoling me tonight, and DZ will be spending the night to accompany me at the god forsaken hours i work. lol

oh, i'm so tired. smoking is going to kill me! Literally, must stop.
both me and the 18 year old will stop, lol  
fuuny, i'm already making plans for the boy, lol, i told him how to change his tmobile bill too, so i could talk to him for free, lol, I AM AWFUL
NE-ways, the C thing hurts more than ever, ....more in a later episode, it bugs to much to go there now, but a summary will occur.
love you who love me, thats the only way it can be.
muah