okay...this was just too funny not to share---
to go along with my status, of "you know you don't suck when..." (People want to talk to you at 2 am)
I now have a new category...
This category I will constitute as--"You know you're cute when..."
now this should be easy "when boys look so hard you actually have time to say "Yes? as he's gawking""
or "when homey in a fly ride is like "Hey?" --thats a geat reassurance
all of which have happened recently, so My confidence is up--
heres the laughter of the day....
you know you're cute when (ready?)
When the Boy at KFC, gives you free chicken????
I
mean, WOW. Chicken Boy, Impressive, You've hooked me up with a chicken
wrap and a diet pepsi, I know You must be a "balla" now....
LOL, N-E-ways. I thought it was hilarious.
I'm cute enough for free chicken. WOW. My prospects are just lining up. HAHA
Well,
it was cute, and to be honest hey 4 bucks is 4 bucks, and it's always
nice when boys are like "Nah, you're too cute to be charged"--So, good
times. Funny, but good times.
PS. For 3 and 4, I didn't order any "hair infested mash potatoes," nor was my free chicken "bloody."
PPS.
Red Rally Tonight. --What is it with this state and the need to burn
things??? Anyways, this is a fire I will attend, perhaps alone??? None
of my girls are going :-(
Oh. Beleive it or not C booked me for Saturday. --Alcohol.
Tequilla Crawl--oh yes, lets take the mexican girl dowtown for tequilla. LOL--Well, who can blame him.
Alicia Keys Lyrics
When You Really Love Someone Lyrics
I'm a woman�
Lord knows it's hard�
I need a real man
to give me what I need�
Sweet attention, love and tenderness�
When it's
real, it's unconditional�
I'm telling ya�
Cause a man just ain't a man if he's
man enough�
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So love you when you're right�
Love you when you're
wrong�
Love you when you're weak�
Love you when you're strong�
Take you
higher in a world that you're feeling low�
He's giving you his last, as he's
thinking of your first�
Giveing comfort when he's thinking that you're
hurt�
That's what it's like when you really really love someone�
I'm
telling ya, I'm telling ya�
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Cause you're a real man�
And Lord knows
it's hard�
Sometimes you just need a woman's touch�
Sweet affection, love
and support�
When it's really unconditional�
I'm telling ya, oh�
Cause
a woman ain't a woman if she's woman enough�
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So love you when you're
right�
Love you when you're wrong�
Love you when you're weak�
Love you
when you're strong�
Take you higher in a world that you're feeling
low�
She's giving you a best, even when you are at your worst�
Giving
comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt�
That's what it's like when you
really really love someone�
I'm telling ya, I'm telling ya�
Ooh, ooh, ooh,
ooh�
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Sometimes you're gonna argue, sometimes you're gonna
fight�
Sometime it's gonna feel it'll never be right�
But something so
strong if you hold it on�
It don't make sense what to make a good
song�
Cause a man just ain't a man if he's man enough�
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So love you
when you're right�
Love you when you're wrong�
Love you when you're
weak�
Love you when you're strong�
Take you higher in a world that you're
feeling low�
He's giving you his last, as he's thinking of your
first�
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt�
That's what
it's like when you really really love someone�
I'm telling ya, I'm telling
ya�
I'm tellying ya that if a woman ain't a woman if she's woman
enough�
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So love you�
Love you when you're right�
Love you when
you're wrong�
To hold you�
Love you when you're weak�
Love you when
you're strong�
Take you higher and higher�
In a world that you're feeling
low�
She's giving you a best, even when you are at your worst�
Giving
comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt�
That's what it's like when you
really really love someone�
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I'm telling ya, I'm telling ya�
Mm, mm,
yeah�
Mm, mm, yeah�
Mm, mm, yeah�
Mm, mm, yeah
I am such a Leo!
Leo July 23-Aug. 22
Feelings of jealousy and possessiveness stir up a host of emotional turmoil now, especially if you are trying to control emotions that cannot be controlled. Be very wary of engaging in a power struggle, either with someone in your immediate environment or with some aspect of your own inner nature. Try to talk about it with a friend or write about it in your journal. But move the energy slowly. There's a lot that needs to come out and it could take some time.
Um...yeah...*sad laugh.
Okay so I miss something and someone that I don't even know I ever had. And blah! My "inner nature" IS in a conflict. One part says move on, while the other is like hold on? Lol--then theres the tummy, saying, hmmm pizza. LOL. Try to make light of a heavy situation, I guess. LOl, funniest thing is, I know you think I'm nuts!!!! HAHA, so do I.
Do people want the truth? Truth, all out in the open? LOL--me too, but not gonna happen. Closest thing to truth I got right now is that people don't approve of my "un-lady like behavior" ; shaaaaaa.....what-ever. So I've decided to keep everything between, me, and my journal. Mitotas never read this anyways. Oh, well.
I sometimes feel like I'm waiting on a call that will never come, you know? I s'pose it's the call I want to come....
And I don't where you went when you left me but
It says here in the water, you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of the telephone
Wonderin when the call comes, when you say it's all right
You got your heart right
I do now. Its all so clear it sucks and it hurts.
The ex has moved on, and I'm so cool with it. C's in love again, and I couldn't be happier. Playa Playa lies when he says he's faithful, but the lord knows he's loyal, to his one and only prada girl, and she's the bomb for keeping him around. J-low's got her man, and I think her man has her more than he'll ever know. J's doing the long distance thing with his Arizona girl, and pledging will help him get through the distance--(hang in there kidd, be seeing you in some red soon).
Me, I wish like hell,i could tell my heart to shut up.
On the upside: hence why I'm writing (yet again!!!): INTERNET is now back on my computer!!!! YAY!!!!
But people that luv you call, as my phone goes...ring ring...
C's quote of the day:
"A warm body laying next you is over-rated"
---Says the man who can't sleep with anyone in his bed!!! Weird!
Ahhh!!!!
Um ditching class and both hate it and love it. Wasn't feeling to great (migraine just barely avoided) and crashed. Funny thing about this, is I fell asleep with J-low here at my place. Well, interesting, not that big a deal, EXCEPT, 1. She thought she was locked in, and feeling so bad for me, just let me sleept. 2. Rather than wake me to let her out, she wakes me up with the comment: "Um...Girl....Mr. Foodstuff is on his way...can you tell me where your keys are? and um....he'll be here soon, you might want to get dressed"
Now--I felt bad this morning. So--I knew I wanted to be confortable. Rather than throw on sweats like a normal girl. I grab last nights p.j's. Yeah--that consisted of black victoria secret silkness--J-lows a big girl, I figured, no worries. But yeah, to know a six foot something, I've never had in my house, let alone a guy seeing my sister!!! Yeah, not something I wanted viewed.
Well she's a dork, but now I'm up. With the cute white sweats I Should have put on originally, and I'm waiting for them to stop "talking." I need a life.
On a job note: Interview this morning was a waste of time. Trainings to be had next week. We all are still praying for my CEP job, Right???? YES WE ARE!!!!
On a personal note: I feel like a looser. I go through these stages of whining: "He doesn't even know how much I do....How much I could...Do you think he ever...? I bet hes never cried..."
then---Well then I get hungry...and rather than being all stupid and call, text, im, or do anything I've begun to constitute as my "bothering" --I reflect on Some Pooh Taoism: Just be....that, and he said don't worry...so i tell my head, don't worry. I tell my stomach to hold on, and I tell J-low, yeah--well i still tell her and everyone else nothing.
it'll happen..I'll be good for someone...I'm just waiting my turn
Someone reminds me of Pooh
Eeyore, the old grey Donkey, stood by the side of the stream, and looked at himself in the water. "Pathetic," he said. "That's what it is. Pathetic." He turned and walked slowly down the stream for twenty yards, splashed across it, and walked slowly back on the other side. Then he looked at himself in the water again.
"As I thought," he said. "No better from this side. But nobody minds. Nobody cares. Pathetic, that's what it is."
_________
"Good morning, Eeyore," said Pooh.
"Good morning, Pooh Bear," said Eeyore gloomily, "if it is a good morning," he said. "Which I doubt," said he.
"Why, what's the matter?"
"Nothing, Pooh Bear, nothing. We can't all, and some of us don't. That's all there is to it."
__________
"Have you all got something?" asked Christopher Robin with his mouth full.
"All except me," said Eeyore. "As usual." He looked round at them in his melancholy way. "I suppose none of you are sitting on a thistle by any chance?"
"I believe I am," said Pooh. "Ow!" He got up, and looked behind him. "Yes, I was. I thought so."
"Thank you, Pooh. If you've quite finished with it." He moved across to Pooh's place, and began to eat.
"It doesn't do them any Good, you know, sitting on them. Remember that another time, all of you. A little Consideration, a little Thought for Others, makes all the difference."
______________
"When you wake up in the morning, Pooh," said Piglet at last, "what's the first thing you say to yourself?"
"What's for breakfast? said Pooh. "What do you say, Piglet?"
"I say, I wonder what's going to happen exciting today?" said Piglet.
Pooh nodded thoughtfully.
"It's the same thing," he said.
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To know the Way,
We go the Way;
We do the Way
The way we do
The things we do.
It's all there in front of you,
But if you try too hard to see it,
You'll only become Confused.
I am me,
And you are you,
As you can see;
But when you do,
Thethings you can do,
You will find the Way,
And the Way will follow you.
We both know that the worst part about it
Told my girl some advice today:
"Stop playing the re-assurance games; it's only you that ends up crying."
Social Restriction never was this fun...
Good Morning! It's 3:45pm, but since I have just showered, I feel like it's morning.
Recent events are so mind boggling! WELL where to begin???
Let's start with the gripes and then we'll move to the good times?
Gripes: Trust No-ONE! A sad but very true fact. I'm so done. So very very done. People you think you can trust, you can't; regardless of the bonds or years you think you share. So whatever. I've been without friends before. I still have my boy J, Four is being really good to me (despite my not deserving it), and despite C's nature, I know at least I can depend on him to keep his mouth shut. Well, regardless--I guess if I thought I was being shady before, lifes about to take a crazy little turn.
But before we go there: I must say I was getting far too confortable, living on other peoples schedules, but I gotta admit that going to work for me right now.
Eg: J-low dictates my on campus time, as I really will let myself wrap up in Lambdaness and computer email returning.
Eg: My sisters (outside of J-low) hold my soical life down. They do that "Sister thang" with me on the weekends. It's now to the point where I forgot what being single and "out with the girls" could really be like. Learning each weekend is a nice temporary distraction from life.
Eg. LOL, every boy in my life dictates their flow within my life. Including Playa playa and C. --Food, or the promise of other girls usually does it though, lol?
Well, I'm cool with this and "whatevering" life right now, and it seems to be rewarding me.
If I ignore friends hurting me, other friends are ready to pick me up, and without missing a beat, I'm out their enjoying life in ways aforementioned friends wouldn't have let me enjoy.
Actually, other random "closed door, open window" experiance: every once in a while I'm reminded, I'm single. Shall we go there now? Well, real quick--
Last night was so random! Met an old friend. He was my first experiance of "fraternity row." Yeah--and like most fraternity men, lol--he had no interest in me, but in my best friend at the time. Yeah well, what can you do?
LOL--I guess, you wait three years and say yes when he ask you to dance.Then you exchange numbers, and ask him out to the club later. When he shows up (to your surprise), you dance some more. You reassure him the "big black guy" that was dancing with you earlier is not going to "kick his ass." (LOL) Then (I don't think you should do this-but) desert him at the club, with the quickest goodbye, because your girls are running through the rain without you. Then once done running, you explain to your girls Nothing. Absolutlely nothing. Why? because, we have learned: Trust no one.
But if this is the route you pursue, this kinda night creates the perfect night. Perfect because, things that are real can now be left alone, and what is perceived can now be wondered about by mitotas and their wild imaginations.
Hmmm. Maybe I'm learning???
Now, before ya'll jump: Perceptions: we've learned this mirror game right? I guess the only one who will know "whats really going on" (as Playa playa put's it)--are the people not worried about appearances.
Trust. Pretty sacred thing I've learned about in the past few days. Some people still have it, others, have lost mine. When you have trust, you can believe "it'll happen" and smile knowing it will--when you don't, well, you can't really beleive anything, can you? But still, you smile, and don't interfere with what perceptions have the power to do.
Life gets easier by the day.