It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you...

Well, its a good song...

As I cling to the couch that I will inevitably fall asleep on (to the dismay of the man in the bed three feet away)
...I thought Id post an answer to a question Someone had asked.

Most concisely, why after all this time did I send Someone a gift?

I have a tendancy to give gifts. I buy gifts because a person is on my mind. Sometimes, a lot of people are on my mind...but most of the time my mind seeks its constants.

I care too much. Feel too much. Love to easy. Hence the gifts. Why? Just because. Because I thought of you, or something reminded me of you. Because its the First Tuesday afterLast Monday, and ultimately, Why not?

I wonder if one day I will stop. Stop loving the men who never loved me?
I don't think I will. I think a little part of me will always love them. I'll always try to be the friend, the ear, the confort and solace.

But as I do have a man three feet away, that would give his dying breath for me, its easier to love the memories and nothing more. What could be, is now looked at as what once was...my dreams notwhithstanding.

Fortunately, no matter where I sleep...and for busy bodies who must know, I'm sleeping on the couch because he's studying for a final and I'm trying not to disturb him...

Nonetheless, I'm always happy to wake up.

Goodnight little universe...besos siempre.