A week in...

Its officially been a week of good hard "relaxing."
-Cookouts have gone indoors due to rain, but the sugar refuses to melt.
-My House has become the Hustlers Hotel with hardly ever a vacancy.
- I have simultaneously discovered the one beer I can drink enjoyably -to excess- is also now the one beer that I fear.
-Party busses live up to their name, especially when you know the bus driver -WELL- and ride for free.
- And yes, despite my insecurities, I am re-assured that both men and women enjoy My company. I have been asked out, sexually harrassed, and in fact, I may have a job due to My said enjoyable persona.
BUT ALAS; I suppose rejection still lingers. I still hold on.

Let me expand just a little. Girl likes guy. Guy knows girl likes him. Guy disappears.
Not what I expected.
I wasn't asking for a relationship. Nor was I trying to minimize his worth and look to him as a boy-toy....I didn't want his money, connections, or hell even a second date. I just wanted to see if their was more than a spark.
According to Michigan, this is My problem. I'm learning rejection for the first time. I want closure and understanding as to "why doesn't he like me?"

Michigan, who admittedly I have turned down, quotes the reasons he's received. -youre to short, -youre to young, youre too old, -we go to school together...blah blah blah. He points out, and I agree, these are all made up excuses masking the only real reason: "Im just not into you." - No reason. Just a feeling that isn't there.

So, we summize. I could continue to ask the question, "Why doesn't he like me?" But truthfully I know I need to come to grips with the idea that no matter the reason, it doesn't change the outcome: He's just not that into me.

Logically, I do get it, but the addage of Why doesn't your heart listen to your head kicks in. I still like this boy.