An Update

So the below was me trying to remember how my truck didn't get broken into, how i don't have to spend over 150 in repairs, and how I'm not hating the absolute annoyance of it all---
:)
Well, I'd like to think I'm pulling it all off pretty well.

*Sigh, but here's the update.
Other than vandalism in my life, I have one MIA housemate, and another in alaska.
yeah in 96+ weather for recess, I'm not really feeling sorry for her in the 60-70 degree bliss she's got going on....
hmmm. but that leaves me (*pause for scream)
Home ALONE!!!!
(AGGGGHHHHH!!!!!)
well, sorta. we do have the minature spawns of satan, or rats, or whatever toy dog it is that my housemate has me watching, but....yeah,....they're smaller than chihuahuas, louder than a police siren, and more chicken sh*t then me, so yeah....
in the end, thanks to recent events, I fall asleep for five minutes (literally, someone TM's me so i knew the time, but, I fall asleep) asnd I have a nightmare that someone is trying to break in. Great right?
ugh!!!!
perfect time to mention, if you are a stalker, I' lied my dogs are mean and big and have rabies. and I have a gun!!!!
well no gun, but if i did, well....i'd probably shoot myself, because statistically...well--I have dogs, so Boo to stalkers and creepy ness. :)

Anyways, i thinking I'm doing an adopt a friend for the night program any way. Just have random friends stay over with me, so that I don't freak out.
#3 stayed the other night, and 3yr boy keeps wanting to, so, *yeah,****i might not just quite stop ignoring his calls.
mean right? invite a boy over just so you can sleep better?
well I've heard of worse, and besides it's not like he minds. LOL
I kid! I swear. It crossed my mind, but--SIGH, all in all guys I'm just to good a girl.
I've decided to face reality once again.
I am reliving last summer all over again.
well sort of. except no psycho ex to claim and I'm financially, and emotionally secure, and I'm 3 pounds away from being the absolute lowest weight my doctor says is acceptable for my height, and hmmm.. okay so it's nothing like last summer.
with exception. SAME Men.
Yeah. I was all set. all ready to go all, like, hmmm 3YOB is like nice, and he like takes me out, and he spends the night and holds me, and yeah, well in the end. I'm just really not that into him.
Nice guy, awesome guy. I just, well I'm not into him. I kiss him and it's like going through the motions, and then worse,....
the next day. I wake up thinking about HIM, and If i shoukld tell HIM, and
well that  3YOB is just not HIM.
and you know to be honest at least when I hooked up with someone outside of HIM, (open/non-existant relationship that it isn't) I would have fun. but this permanent, lets go out, let me come over, blah blah blah, just isn't fun. so yeah. I know I'm bad, but hey. I'm learning.
I'm learning I don't have to say "Yes I'll stay with you because you want me."
It's progress, hell, isn't that what I learned last summer?

So...yeah the return of HIM.
*SIGH.
Relax folks it was temporary if at all, and to be honest I'm kicking myself for going against the mantra,  "Don't catcha feelin'"

Cuz, bottom line is, I'm like, 50 cent thinking,

Hate it or love it the under dog's on top
And I'm gon shine homie until my heart stop...

From the beginning to the end
Losers lose, winners win
This is real we aint gotta pretend
The cold world that we in
It's full of pressure and pain
Enough of me nigga now listen to Game.....

In summation, I'm ready to f-up the cool casual let me be your plan B, and I'll call you on a saturday when I'm too far gone to drive. aka, I'm gonna screw it up by asking what the relationship status is. awe!!!! yes, I'm doing it knowingly people but what can I say....
"Hate it or Love it." LOL. in my defence, he screwed it up before me, he wanted to "see what else life had to offer" or some bs like that.....
yup "the talk" should happen...sadness, the re-occurring shack is nice--even for us Ladies.

So if HE ever calls me, maybe I'll find out what out "relationship status" is, or "where this is all going"--
I guess the diff is that "the talk" is a well known tool girls use to kill the shack.

I'm not bored, I'm just past the games.

Honesty, there is a point to the song below. If you know me, you get the bolded words.

PS. LOL....Hey Mr. Someone, truly, you amaze me. That door is still always open. LOL--after all it is summer