So are we tired of my phone messages? me too! Internet is now available at the CASA!!!! YAY yet again. But right now, Must complete these damn finals. I swear they will be the death of me. Um....plans for Juarez back on. Dentist still coming. J--you're a looser who needs to pay your phone bill (JK--thanks for the phone call and look forward to seeing you on the 2nd with your girl---Awww. Everyone say aww, Girlie Girl is staying with J! awww. And i know what her christmas gift is !!!! HEE HEE Shhhhh.) Okay, Prophet is being a looser and doesn't get leave til April! Ugh. Now everyone be mad. Hurr-rumph. ummmm....I start my kindergarden class tommorrow! yay 6yr olds. what else. dentist, prophet, j, oh, 18 yr old boy is still a looser who owes me cash flow. grrr 25 bucks is still 25 bucks. Thats almost two Shinedown tickets! BTW--Shinedown, Sunshine, Jan 10th. You should go. 15 dollars pre sale. What else. hmmm. you know when people or things just pop in your life unexpectadely (i so can't spell right now, but yeah)--and then EVERYTHING reminds you of them (despite whether you wanted to be reminded or not???)
hmmm...so I'm sitting at a stop light and on the back of a truck is the quote:
"Racing is Life.
Everything before or after is just waiting"
And I'm like, Wow. and then I'm like, hmmmm. and then I'm like Damn, I'm going to be thinking of him all day aren't I. and I did. and I hate that.
Plus in addition. the housemate, D, has become completely obsessed with this boy, who as I keep relaying to her, is just a BOY!!!! WE shall call him PizzaBoy as a matter of fact. So she's all in love with PizzaBoy and is like blah, blah, blah, and what if, and blah. And i love this girl, but I realized, damn is this what I seemed like? and if so, damn. What's worse, if I probably cared enough to check, I'm sure the journals would show, yeah, I really was just as bad. And that not only creeps me out, but makes me feel really bad. So--mr. someone, if you ever read this, which I'm sure you don't cuz I'm sure you have a life, --like I'm sure no one reads-(see previous entries on my real friends never read--) BUT IF YA do stumble across this random foolishness sometime, damn, I'm sorry. I mean we had something pretty decent and ya know I really did manage to screw that up. yeah. sorry 'bout that. but still if you do read, you should know I recovered fast enough, lol, so I guess I wasn't that head sprung. lol. Well, ne-whoo-with that out of the way, maybe I'll finally get him out of my head.
which yes other boys in my head, my mother has now convinved me yet again that I made a good choice by leaving and with D's countdown to when the Dentist returns, (12 MORE DAYS--it's better than christmas!)--simultaniously running with the stepmoms countdown to when I'm heading to vegas, I'm thinking there all right.
So here is the countdown as we see them--
9 hours till party time with Marine. (and yes there are plans for him staying over--in the purely platonic, you should just spend the night, kinda way)
1 day, mas o menos, till I have two kindergarten classes and am employed at a real job! yay
3 days till I pick up the reason I never think about slitting my wrist. Seriously if I ever lived for anyone, it truly is that kid.
3 days til juarez
10 days till Christmas (which is another countdown in it self--the chant was to chisten ---- by Christmas: and NO this is no longer a goal nor desire)
um... 10 days I guess till i have my first ever Christmas away from family, but then thats 10 days from spending Christmas with C's family. Awww. yes, the invite did occur, and I am "formally invited."
and then theres 12 days for Dentist return and my proposed alope-ment
14 days till SanDi California
17 days til my return to this place but with a visit from J! yay. and then wow, a break???
yeah, like one whole week. hmmm. what to do???? well, theres Shinedown on the 10th with C.
OH DAMN I almost forgot. MARINE came to his descision. he leaves the 2nd for wyoming, leaving me and his girl behind. yeah, damn. he broke the news to me on monday over long islands and corona. hence, his staying at my place tonight. yeah, sadness. I'm gonna miss him. he was so fun. well, I have him tonight, so no worries til then right, right.
whats left? Petioning for an incomplete extension from last year, one more final still now recieved from a teacher, paying my tuition so I can enroll, and yeah, that Lambda thing. Which, yeah, I'm seriously starting that the second I'm done with finals. It's only 958 emails. Yeah. Only. Well, one step at a time right.
okay this is me not procrastinating and getting off. Afterall, C's opperant condioning is pretty effective, no contact till I'm done with Finals--harsh but truly motivating.
k--til I'm bored again.
hope the new year bring you clarity and you are able to see what you want, and most importantly that you see to it that you get what you want, happy holidays -zuby