"Id."short for "idem,"meaning the same. Similar to "ibid."an abbreviation for "ibidem,"latin for "the getting everything one wants, and still wanting more.

State v. Killer; Life as a 1L continues

Friday, I may have time to update...Really, I'll try, but until...

My Class Song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N8ABhatAfsA
I don't know how the hell a 1-L had the time....but wow....so true.

I have more to say. swear. just. later. miss you universe.

A day of rememberance

I've spent the past two days in my Law Schools Chapel....and though I have much to say, on the feelings of that alone, I have no time to say it now....

Today, I dawn my "pin" for the first time under the saddest of circumstances.  Today the school will stop. From 12:15 to 1pm. A month and a day. We will remember Oliver Hill.

If you do not know who this great man is, I invite you to read a short synopsis:
http://www.naacpldf.org/content.aspx?article=1187

Amazing, how death can put life into perspective. Amazing how one life changed so many others.....

Today, it isn't about being a 1L or how much books cost, or the bureaucracy of trying to get a refund check...From 12:15 to 1pm, the school will stop.
 I will stop.
I will remember my legacy.
I will carry the torch.

No way its this easy....

Legal Methods has 22 classes, as of today I have completed 11 of those classes.

I am halfway done.  Not possible you say? Oh but it is. If you account for holidays, and the 3 days we have off (called "reading period")  to prepare for our exams. There are 11 more actual classes.

And me? I'm finally breathing. After a serious four day retreat of non-stop reading, a color coding folder and notebook OCD compulsion, plus this handy dandy calender idea I created for myself (also OCD and color coded)....I finally feel like I have things under control. well maybe....we'll see in a week.

All and all I'm relaxing. I even watched a movie today. I may regret not utilizing the time to study tomorrow, but in the moment, I'm feeling ok.

In all reality I'm leary....its like the calm before the storm. I know its gonna hit, its just a matter of when, and hoping I got no slip shoes on. :)

On another positive note. I think I may have a friend or two.
Well, nicer colleagues anyways.

Hope everyone is doing well in their own little universe., mine seems to be aligning nicely with the sun.

Week 2, Assignment 1 Over

It's done, five minutes before deadline, it's done.

Turned in, and done. Now, congratulate me, for all I need to do this weekend is read a few hundred pages in Torts, Civil Law, Contracts, and schedule a Legal writing lab. Eh, Boo on that.....I think I am going to eat ice cream. Oooh, ice cream and apple cobbler.

Trust me, its delicious and I deserve it.

****Sigh****

I hear there's a real world outside the one I've created in my head. Lol.

Here's some insight. We JUST finished week two, and TV is talked about in the past tense....(No lie, this conversation did take place.)
"Do you get to watch TV?....Do you schedule it in for that "break we're SUPPOSED to give ourselves?...No, me neither....I miss TV."
"Do you remember Bravo shows? Like Project Runway...I hear that started?"
"Did you ever watch HEROES?...Yeah, I think I'll buy the season for a christmas gift to myself after finals are over"
"I miss my x-box....I just looked at my controller last night...."
"Yeah man, I had an X-box."

Forever ago.....*Sigh. On the plus side, I almost have all my books ordered. Classes aren't until Tuesday. and my first graded assignment is done.
Maybe I'll sleep to reward myself??? I haven't done that in a while.
Cobbler then sleep....
Sleep sounds nice....at least for an hour before I start on Civil Procedure.
Cobbler then sleep....

The Breakdown

I have a shirt, that has a cute little owl holding a bitten lolly-pop saying "Uno...., dos....."

Should you translate it from Spanish to English, it would read:  "One, Two....."

The shirt is based on the commercial "How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop" 

This day has sadly become the analogy to my shirt.

How many licks does it take to get to the center of this 1L.

I'm almost ashamed to admit it, but given I pulled it together...Let me just put it out there.

I cried. From 8:30 am to 8:45 am I couldn't stop crying. The simple idea that I was not on schedule, that I couldn't get some "rationale" down for my "rule of law" for the upcoming assignment, and the fact that I simply just want to sleep or  get some damn Starbucks coffee to make it through my day, made me cry. And I couldn't stop.
Its week 2, day 9 or 10, because I've lost all sense of time, and I'm already crying! What does that say? Does that say I'm week, that I can't hack? Absolutely not. And I know this. So Why can't I stop crying?
I start thinking of my scholarship. $10,000 dollars. Not even a fourth of my tuition. But as per our GLORIOUS administrative seminar yesterday, we were all reminded how our "class rank" determines whether or not we have our scholarships renewed.  And I'm on week 2!  Week 2 and I'm tripping over 1 damn assignment not even worth 1/10 of my final grade and I'm crying. And you know why??? Because it matters, people may say it doesn't but it does.  10 points from may grade may be the defining difference between being in the top 8 students in my section versus being student nine. Student 9 looses everything. No matter how great your rationale, no matter how air tight your essays to come may be, there's only room for 8 people, i that top 3% and and in law school, yeah, everyone is determined to be one of those 8. Everyone is working just as hard.

I pull it together by 8:45. not because I'm done crying or not because I've centered and pulled my cool Taoist mentality into focus. No I stop crying because I have a god damn case to  re-read for the 18th  thousandth  time, and  deadlines come faster than you know, and Civ.Pro already put out the next assignment....

I stop crying and just in time, because another person from my section hops on the metro with me. I'm smiles and sunshine, because everyone lies in law school.

We talk blase, and completely avoid the cases at hand.  Which makes me think we're friends.

Here's my decoder ring for any one interested:
Those who talk about "getting it," are lying.
Those who talk about "not getting it, " are lying.

Everyone says "do what works for you." --Liars

This is me not lying. I cried. I'm not even through freaking week 2 and I'm crying. 

Oh well, maybe I'm just more honest with myself. Maybe I'll scare myself into perfection.

 A quote from someone else's blog that rang true. "All I can say about the old days, is that I think about them every single minute."-JM

Daily Horoscope

You may be feeling the emotional stress associated with this Full Moon Eclipse in your 8th House of Transformation. You might not want to change in ways that are being required of you now. Even if you know that the old road is changing, you may not be ready for the new path to appear. Nevertheless, your happiness may depend on your ability to let go of the past.