For the sake of my sanity. i just might move out. the lambda hotel is yeah now an everyday reminder of the non life i have.
I love my girls. i love my org. and its out of that love that i'm missing work tomorrow. missed class tonight and am making C have to deal with all of it
I'm going to shoot myself. --No you Jacks, not in that way and thats not funny. grr. anywhoo. want to grr.

538 he cant sleep. his resolution: buy a futon. :)

And at 2:45 in the morning its miss v that brings drunkenmess home. in short rather than being annoyed i'm actually kinda
proud. tonight--separation aside--Has been pretty good. the chapter pulled together something impressive and all others were
equally "hot." kind words have been exchanged, and perhaps tomorrow without me playing Mommy, I can be more social. :)
A note on that, isn't it scary how well i play mom now. i come in slightly twisted, only to be straightened out by a 2yr old
man. now noteworthy again in the room i was in lay 3 men i've claimed to love, but in holding that kid, its kinda crazy to
know that thats the end result. well MY end result anyway
With those men in the room too i
contamplated the "what ifs."
With the Ex, perhaps i would have brought that kinda happiness to my life. with Someone else-lol, while i think he might be
a better-and i mean awesome- father than most, I never viewed him in that light. Then, well then there is my current. He whose
Mother has said she wants grandchildren in 3yrs and He who has planned for age 27. now shockingly enough this gives only one
One more year of delay than Mom. *Sigh* I would just be completing the Bar.
Lol. scary part?!? i'd be ready should I accidental ly be blessed. No worries though. For His sanity and need to be a "Single
Fraternity Boy" i'm probably the most reliable and intelligent woman regarding those kinda choices. Aka. He would kill me.
Funny thing...One night, after watching Will & Grace, I ask should 27 come around and were not together or with any one else,
would He be my Will and give me a chance to play Mommy for real. maybe another reason I love Him--HE actually said yes.
Now the irony is: neither one of up can commit to each other right now. but we somehow play grown up and talk about raising
the kids Catholic, with a swing set and tree house, and how santa and the Easter bunny both have their place. i guess in the
End, He is just my favorite make believe friend, and He indulges me in playing house. :)
LOL. right. okay. enough of that!!! we can't even Kiss in public! and yeah in order to have kids, you kinda have to be doing
--well someone, and something we just haven't and i can't perceive doing.
Okay tonight has been an overshare. perhaps i'll delete in the morning. until then drunkenness has subsided, and i'm content.
I hope my three men are. Deep down, I love each one still. Hopefully they know. Besitos.

*sigh

So here it is confessions of a school teacher:

Were having a Sorror call our work so we can bounce early.  Awful i know, but you know what it's Friday.

My girls will be bomb this year, I know it. Well hopefully, because they keep buiding me up, and I'm like all anxious.

Pre-refreshments at the Brick as is our way. I'll try to look human by this evening, until then. Nap?

K. Antibiotics are kicking in. I'm feeling and looking worse by the day though. Greek Events may kill me. Tried to support
Sisters as they rehearsed tonight only to cough up my lungs. but on the plus side the doctor has said i'm basically okay.
Medicine is actually to ward off the germs my body might be fighting but since i had the flu like 3 weeks ago what i'm facing
now is a weak immune system needing some help. so i guess we'll see. i'm already seeing a differance. hopefully it will be
gone by Sat. tomorrow would be nice but well we can't have everything.
Lol. speaking of which. Shirts are going to be replaced and i couldn't be happier. i'm not sure how i'm going to fix my
Current shirt, but i'll make it work
I'm still feeling bad about venting went wrong, but if you're forgiven you're forgiven and you shouldn't lose sleep over it,
right? right. anyway. i should do the sleep thing now. tomorrow comes quick and yeah. oh. everyone be sad. He can't wish me
good night anymore :(
Well good night universe, and good night Moon. ;-)

8 Buddies online and not one i wish to speak with or who wishes to speak to me. but ah the codine
As soon as she writes, He starts.

People are so lucky i don't run things

GRRRRR
and if you Didn't get it GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR again.
This is the third shirt and the third time I've complained. Except this Week I can finally do something about it.
******Hey Boys in Blue, good job in having enough respect for yourselves to not allow others to wear what you've earned.
I wish I could say the same but NO
But thats okay, Administrators will be hearing from me tommorow.
I'm officially having a "BF" and yes "I'm going to write a LETTER"
UGH. Agrivation. and then to make the Bob even more Bitter, They went and disrespected my Hermanos?????
HELL NO. I was about ready to throw down with  like five girls in clovis for them talking innappropriately, but like a lady i held back....
but this....this is just wrong. PHI not PI you JAcks. i don't know bout the rest of you all but i learned my alphabet.
PI!!!!
UM. no. I'll take my ten dollars back, thank you. OH--- if I was that pres I would have every shirt recalled, but .....ugh.
Upset much? yeah just a bit. people are so lucky. I would be like down more throats then i already am. ugh.
okay this is venting but DAMN IT. HAVE SOME RESPECT!!!!!
grrrrrr.....