Day 2 of God willing Continued Internet

Ooh before i start---Mr. Marine if you're out there and reading:
Happy First Day of Class!!!!!
Hee Hee.
Damn I miss him.

Okay so no real updates I guess, except that I'm sooooo happy right now. Lets review, shall we?

Education: a number one priority: Expected graduation dat May 2006. No one put it on your calender, it's probably going to happen,---but like my undgraduate career, I don't really think of this as a "large" accomplishment. Maybe one day I will.

Lambda-ness: aw yes, aint that fresh, 385 emails to go.

Job--tiring, exhausting, gross on somedays, but wow, so cool.
Money--Decent. After realizing I had totally screwed up some figures, I'm breathing easier knowing I will have money for rent, utilities, food and gas expenses, and the ever important 178 dollar phone bill. Excessive, yes. But do I have any regrets? not a damn one. What can I say? 
"I've got ho's...."

LOL. JK.

As playa playa would put it: "What's really going on?"

Alright the update on " As the Ho' Turns"

*sigh? where to begin, the list?

In reverse as always
Haven't seen Blockbuster Boy, in case the El Paso Crew was curious. But I guess thats just laughable since that was like a what, hello?
um, HIM--well yeah, we're um...lol. I don't know what we're doing--what else is new, oddly we're on (what?) the 8th month of this?
Dentist--well no wedding bells, no alope-ment, but again as El Paso crew would acknowledge, and anyone who's seen Latino kings of Comedy could gather: when he was here
"I liket-ed-it"
--yeah and so did he ;-)
um, before that? 18 yr old boy is probably, hell i couldn't even guess? Don't know don't care
MR. Someone, yeah, maybe I'm transgressing, maybe I'm looking for closure, Maybe I just want to get him off my mind and think if I talk to him that will do it? I don't know, but as I couldn't help finally IM'ing this guy yesterday was the following
"Somehow the universe refuses to let me forget"
--so yeah, maybe one day that will be a don't know don't care, but for know, I guess I just don't know?
Before? Beside? Next too? who else? lol---as the Prophet says "Wait, is this guy number 3 or 4? I can't keep up?"
LOL, um, Playa playa nd me are talking again. and i do mean "talking" --literally, nothing more, swear. and in his famous affirmation "say swear to God" yeah, swear to God. Took him Christmas shopping, he took me for a ride in his new Nissan Z, thats been about it.
who else. Marine is in Wyoming. First class was today if ya'll missed it. and well, I miss him. *sigh* (Thank god for free nights and weekends)
who else? --Marine 2, or "the Daddy" is being a dad in NC.
the prophet is getting leave in april.
and J of course has his girl, and per comments, should be recieving calls shortly.
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the girls, me and J-low have still yet to actually talk in like a month or two. life and distractions just get in the way i guess, but it's a two way street.
4 and 5 like J-low-ness have also vanished from my life
3 makes a total effort to stay in my life, and for that, kisses and vino sis.
my LS, housemate, co-worker, and right-side, Mrs. V is totally my de-stresser, and yet still not all oh we have to be best friends type. it's weird, but totally the bomb relationship. --Actually for as much as I see this girl it's amazing I don't hate her. I'm sure she's tired of me though, and my never ending stories of HIM.
D is the housemate I never see, and because of it--prob the housemate C will begin to see less of. Yeah, that was finals panic i think. There have been enough moments to re-assure me now that C would not go there.
So, yeah J, prayer works. lol
BTW, speaking of prayer--Blockbuster rental (lol) "SAVED" starring Mandy Moore--good. 3 stars
 Thats it. Seriously, there is my entire social circle minus 14 yr old, crush, and her girlfriend. Plus dad fam, which is SOOOO rare. I never see or hear from them,
but breath of fresh air, Sis from Dads side called yesterday, so refreshing, though SOooo high school, the drama of 14 yr old boys. geesh.
lol
so really if it aint in here, than i don't think it could be that important

We're gonna make this a write in, if I've forgotten anything, or you (lol)--lemme know. We will ammend and let the world know what else is improtant in the little universe I call my own.

oh, wait, almost forgot, the ex--he is seeing someone new. totally official. I saw his best friend the other night, very odd. anywhoo, but yeah. how do I feel? well I don't--it's an odd sensation. not threatened, almost relieved. like, "yay, she can deal with wrist splitting" --mean maybe, but after a semester of bad grades, I needed to vent. okay well, I say we drop him as a subject from now on, cause he's boring, yes? yes, I agree.
with that done and tidy, wow, am I growing up?
ewwwww....I should email my fellow 5 yr old in spirit now, and remind him of my talking Tao-teaching panda bear in Never Never land, so that I don't feel pulled together. wow, pulled together....lets see how long this last. lol
Love you all, besitos.

Based on recent events.....

In hopes not to jinx this yet again, I think I have internet.
ughhhhh. sad. but yet so happy. it's 12 I have to be up in 6 hours. must sleep.

Mr. Brightside

"I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never..."

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Life without Love is like an unfinished symphony: beautiful but ultimately disappointing

Time home 9:01. Housemates home 0. One at work, the other- based on the roses, probably doing the same thing I was.
Like a big girl I've started saying when I'm leaving, and have begun to walk myself out to the parking lot-dilegently, and as
always, remaining stealth. avoiding all ex's, slipping by ll "Brothers," and magically avoiding all forms of the "Walk of
Shame." So why log this? To relay my summer talents me walking through hallways in heels remains ever graceful? No.
While talented and "Happy" there seems to be a shift...
I always want what I can't have. Alas! Perhaps the conquest has become to easy...No. In honesty, and for no better words than
those stuck in my head from last night- there seems to be a lack of "Clarity."
Yes. a month later almost i finally had enough time to review my comments, and in classic 14 yr old summary- "Yeah...Wow."
Shaken, no. shocked, yes. hopeful? not at all.
For some odd reason Mr. Someone remains in my eyes Above caring. not harsh, just as he puts it, "staying out of trouble."
anywhoo, tragic flaw of the night- one to be learned from by all men reading,
Never gentlemen, point out to the girl you are with, that the girl at the bar you previously called "Thick" is thinner than
than you. especially when you're going home with her,
Okay sleepy time now.

Omg. john mayer is haunting me now. really. i liked it so much more when he wasn't in the mainstream. howie day too

Scooby snacks. wow. i'm an idiot. and worse. is i'm an idiot for him. i need to stop this madness. been wondering not only if
I should, but if its possible. how do you break up with someone you love and still be friends. especially when you were never
actually together. -Wow. DejaVue(?) all over again. can we say same mistakes over and over again?
i have that song. even though i loved it. kinda like john mayer.
Love him just can't listen anymore though. not because JM isn't completely awesome, and not like i cry, but well- how do you
stay friends with Someone you loved?
j, and respectful permission from the ring wearer, you think i can get a call please? miss you.
Nice notes today: no kids threw up on me. my baby sister still thinks i'm kool enough to talk to her friends,& my 14 Yr old
Crush still calls me his girlfriend. lol. at least i have one "Man" that still loves me. lol. goodnight little universe

In abbreviation: reading "The Prince," still in love with "a friend," been thinking about my education and where its really
Going. got thrown up on by a kindergarten princess. am magically still looking cute and girl-like. as a matter of fact i keep
Catching glances of my self ever so often and i think i look like a porn star. not slutty porn star, but so cute i could be in
Some soft core no plot type cheesey thing. not that i ever watch. lol. right.
K. all done i think. except ever get in one of those moods to where the only thing other than sleep that sounds good is good
Wine and better sex. on that note. sleepy time

My hairs shorter. My Jeans fit looser. money seems to be under control. i've got boys from different area codes calling me.
All and all pretty awesome-O.
So why is it the one guy who can always make me smile just made me in to bed without one.
Side notes: J missed you. happy new year to you both. and thanks for everything.
P.s. block buster boy or BB Boy as dubbed by J, is gay i think. cant tell yet. but no more late fees!
You can guess what i'll be doing
Why is it when you want to talk noone is there, but them when you're busy getting your hair cut for instance People you'd
Really like to catch up with call or message you. and despite whatever longing there might be to catch up. the hair falling
Around you seems to beg different.
Relax all. It's two inches. HE won't even notice. promise.
Whatever though. i'm happy, and sleepy. maybe i'll in to the gym tomorrow and keep there pants falling off.
Alright. miss me... i miss you. besitos.