Ash Wednesday/ Deee-leted....

In recognition of Ash Wednesday....Catholics around the globe choose today to embark on a 40 day trial of Change. Some try to "abstain" --giving up, coke, sweets, red meat.
Others, embark to do something new. Add prayer or musical enrichment to their daily lives.

I think, the hope is to remind ourselves that this is a world in which we make choices. For better or worse.  My Torts professor would have me say that this is a good time to be thinking about we are doing politically....but lets not go there today.

Being more spiritual than religious, and enjoying my self-proclaimed Taoism, one would thing that today wouldn't be that signifigant for someone like me. But it is.
   Maybe it was that I was raised Catholic and still cling to the rituals in my life that make sense. Maybe like my Torts teachers suggested, I'm using today as an opportunity to check in with myself. Its probably both, combined with recent frustrating events.

The events I won't go into, because now ever weary of being just another thing held against me, I plead the 5th. Suffice it to say, I am comfortable with my choices, my past, and the memories I have; and am now seeing a future that broadens my future to a point in which I may no longer have to depend upon my past.

Some call it closure, others call it preventative. Whatever you call it, action is still needed to sustain the thought.
(Lol....that was legalease for "if youre gonna do it, stop thinking about it, and just do it")

So I did it. I deleted old accounts and got rid of every link....electronically, if not emotionally. The Myspace is gone. My AOL is gone. All the letters and emotional safety nets that once told me I meant something at sometime.

Truth is. I can be happy in the now. Well....maybe not "now" --lets face it, I'm a 1L in Lawschool. Life sucks. But. I can be happy. I have good good friends, that are girls. Lol. imagine that. I have a wonderful family, that supports me. I have a cat that despite never seeing me, still loves me--even if I am doing miserably in law school.

And despite never ever putting an even more personal account of my life on this thing, for fear that I might regret it....Lol, I do have one.

Just like the links and accounts that takes a very small effort to prove to myself everyone else has moved on in their lives....I guess its time I moved on with mine.

Still debating how long to leave this cite up. It seems pretty well disclaimed....so we'll see.

Have a Good Ash Wednesday Little Universe.