i must admit i have some mixed emotions tonight. another conversation with C another night without sleep. no ones fault but my
own. i wish i was coming home now to the fatigue i felt after being somewhere or with Someone you cared about. instead it
seems like i talked to long and wasted valuable time, sleep, and energy in the process. It shouldn't be this hard to maintain
a friendship... i'd like to blame the new girl, but i think that would be giving him to much credit. i'd like to say, it was
anything more than boredom-but, It's not. It's merely withdrawls from holding on tightly and now realizing its time to let go.
like most of the boys in my life, he apologized, made nice, and said i won't hurt you again...Except this time i'm tired. too
tired to deny whats blatantly obvious-- i'm fine alone, have been for some time, and will be till someone wants to change that
But as the book says, "Since when is good enough what were going for?"
Early morning fatigue in T-3 hours. :-)