From Melt down to just melting

okay so five second break from my 8 page paper thats due in of 1.5 hours.  went to the doctor today. yeah, the anti-biotics they gave me to cure my seemingly harmless but oh so bothersome cough has apparently disagreed with the pigment of my skin, meaning, i have the cutest little red blotches ever on my shoulder, thigh, torso and wrist. not contagious the doctor says, nothing to worry about the doctor says, just a little alergic reaction. um, yeah, great.
so guess what we all know what anti-biotics mua is no longer allowed to take. peachy.
moving right along. Spent last night crying on the phone, with my best friend. i'm sure he hates me, but he doesn't. because he called me, and he keeps calling me, reminding me constantly that it is my life, and that last time i checked i never gave anyone--not the university, not my ex, not my sorrors--permission to jack that up.
so, acknowledging that --i woke up this morning, and told c I hated life and the bad day i wasn't prepared for, in three words he made it all do-able.
Not those three words, breathe people, this is C we're talking about.
but close enough, he IM's me-- after a lengthy explanation of why my day will just be awful and i should shoot myself and drop out of school and blah blah, whine whine....
--just simple...
"We'll fix it"
Not "I know YOU can do this",
or "YOURE strong, YOU'll manage,"
but being the true friend he is, who lord knows can't stand me on days like yesterday and this morning, says I'm not alone.  And you know that's all it took.
So, there it is my positive-ness for the day.
I have a presentation in 1.4 hours now lol and an 8 page paper due, and you know what, I'm gonna do it-- I might have to "push ridiculously hard today"  to make it happen, lol, but I will. and even if I don't --I know the shoulder I can lean on and the arms I can run to.  You know, I've been that for many, so it's nice that one person is willing to be that for me.
Smile, cuz if you're reading this, You're probably someone that I do love, and if you need me, I'm there for you.  And I just wanted to let you know I'm doing okay.