Breathless

Tonight: Poetry Slam-- few words, and all seem inadequate.

I get the meaning of descriptives like "awesome,"  when I'm done with exhibitions like
these.

*sigh.....

The second performance, a free flow, goes by "The Sloan"-- yeah, threw an affirmation my way in spoken word,

"You are beautiful.
 Stand up.
Own it"
               --he says.

LOL...and if I did?

Can you tell I'm Reading my emails:

Forward from "P"

I'd like to add, Can you tell I have something on my mind?

Where's my "DON'T CATCH FEELINGS" T-shirt???
# 3, I blame this all on you--LOL, JK, I couldn't blame anyone if I tried.
Besides, I'm not in a blaming mood. Just a good one ;)

Read Slowly...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. 

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own....

when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (Even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?


*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am a friend with all of my family and they know I love them? *

People live, but people die.  I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?

Forward from 15: HOLDING IT DOWN

A good woman is proud of herself. She respects herself and others. She
is aware of who she is. She neither seeks definition from the person
she is with, nor does she expect them to read her mind. She is quite
capable of articulating her needs.

A good woman is hopeful. She is strong enough to make all her dreams
come true. She knows love, therefore she gives love. She recognizes
that her love has great value and must be reciprocated. If her love is taken
for granted, it soon disappears.

A good woman has a dash of inspiration, a dabble of endurance. She
knows that she will, at times, have to inspire others to reach the potential
God gave them. A good woman knows her past, understands her present and
moves toward the future.

A good woman knows God. She knows that with God the world is her
playground, but without God she will just be played. A good woman does
not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she
understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to
bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love.

Girl Smile.....YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT GOING ON! ......So Keep ON Keeping On.

Got The Killers in my head. Somebody told me that you had a boyfriend...
Anyways. So ahead and on top of things i'm smiling. locking myself in Zim has been awesome. So ahead, I'm even going to catch a
Poetry Slam this Thurs. :)
I'm looking forward to it and will continue to work hard to earn my little self reward.
It may seem petty but time is always of the essence and how and who I choose to spend it with shows my dedication.
All in all I'm happy I've prioritized. It seems like everything has fallen into place just in time and I can finally enjoy
getting a little of what I continually put out... I gotta admit, It's nice :)

Wow. I don't know if its been all the positive people coming into my life or just my acceptance of things as they are but Wow
I feel awesome. I'm a week ahead in homework. i'm on time for work. bills are paid. could it be the lack of loser boys in my
life? lol. prob not. maybe. just maybe It's my comfort in allowing Someone back into my life.
I know no one understands. But it really isn't for anyone to get. I think thats key. I don't even get it. Lol. it might not
even exist. but i'm happy without and i'll be happy with. If anything, It's a broadned way of thinking, a re-introduction to
a musical culture I can now not go crazed over, and 98.6 degrees of comfort I welcome.
So I'm laying in bed. smiling. listening to the rain. Take 5 Seconds everyone. Do what it is that makes you happy.

Some I've tried, Some I will try ;)

Forward from a Sorror:

WAIT!!!! Before that, much love to my Sorrors--TX, 1,3, and 4,  my Marine, Playa-Playa, J, J's Girlie (haha you have a birthday? what on earth could you be getting????hmmm...I know. hee hee) My 14-year old royal cuteness and enteroge, THE PROPHET who will be arriving on APRIL 7th (EVERYONE SMILE and say "Drunken Good Times") um, my side sisters "CUZ the BACK OF THE LINE, HOLDS it DOWN!" :)  and unfailing C. All of whom are my tru Familia....Thank you C (I know you don't read this, but...if ya ever did), you and your family mean the world to me. You know this, they know this, and I love you all for it.  Pero necessitan tortillas....
You all made my Easter so wonderful! and I don't even celebrate! But I do feel loved, so thank you. Besitos a todos.

Oh, and just so everyone who might read is caught up. With everything going on I know you might be questioning, but:
Yes, I am happy.
When I'm not happy, I fix it.
So no worries, I didn't give anyone permision to arrange me...

The world is mine, no one has to tell me this time.


102 WAYS TO COPE WITH STRESS
Get up 15 minutes earlier (DONE TODAY :))
Prepare for the morning the night before
Avoid tight fitting clothes
Avoid relying on chemical aids
Set appointments ahead
Don't rely on your memory! write it down
Practice preventive maintenance
Make duplicate keys
Say NO more often
Set priorities in your life
Avoid negative people
Use time wisely
Simplify meal times
Always make copies of important papers
Anticipate your needs
Repair anything that doesn't work properly
Ask for help with jobs you dislike
Break large tasks into bite size portions
Look at problems as challenges
Look at challenges differently
Unclutter your life
Smile
Be prepared for rain
Tickle a baby
Pet a friendly dog/cat (or get one in our case)
Don't know all the answers
Look for a silver lining
Say something nice to someone
Teach a kid to fly a kite
Walk in the rain
Schedule play time into every day
Take a bubble bath
Be aware of the decisions you make
Believe in yourself
Stop saying negative things to yourself
Visualize yourself winning
Develop your sense of humor
Stop thinking tomorrow will be a better today
Have goals for yourself
Dance a jig
Say hello to a stranger
Ask a friend for a hug
Look up to the stars
Practice breathing slowly
Learn to whistle a tune
Read a poem
Listen to a symphony
Watch a ballet
Read a story curled up in bed
Do a brand new thing
Stop a bad habit
Buy yourself a flower
Take time to smell the flowers
Find support from others
Do it today
Work at being cheerful and optimistic
Put safety first
Do everything in moderation
Pay attention to your appearance
Strive for Excellence NOT perfection
Stretch your limits a little each day
Look at a work of art
Hum a jingle
Maintain your weight
Plant a tree
Feed the birds
Practice grace under pressure
Stand up and stretch
Always have a plan
Learn a new doodle
Memorize a joke
Be responsible for your feelings
Learn to meet your own needs
Become a better listener
Know your limitations; let others
know them, too
Tell someone to have a good day in pig
Latin
Throw a paper airplane
Exercise every day
Get to work early
Clean out one closet
Play patty cake with a toddler
Go on a picnic
Take a different route to work
Leave work early (with permission)
Put air freshener in your car
Watch a movie and eat popcorn
Write a note to a far away friend (or TM them :))
Go to a ball game and scream
Cook a meal and eat it by candlelight
Recognize the importance of unconditional love
Remember that stress is an attitude
Keep a journal (ya think?)
Practice a monster smile
Remember you always have options
Have a support network of people, places, and things
Quit trying to fix other people
Get enough sleep
Talk less and listen more
Freely praise other people
Learn the correct words to an old song

BONUS: Relax, take each day at a time; you have the rest of your life
to live!

oh yeah. we have a dog now!!!