After watching JARHEAD, I wonder how good I'll look in a USMC shirt. Ha ha.
So...I talk big...but, I'm trying J.

I erased numbers. I did...

Burning Question: How does one damn song make me miss someone so much?

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It's nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line


If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something?

Life tempts us with that which we can only have for a moment.

Oh well. Zen, baby, Zen...

"One of these days someone is going to come into your life and make you realize why it didn't work with any one else."

Brrr...Cold. So cold.

Okay. So given the "guy thing" as usual, I'm over analyzing...

So, instead I'm gonna go to bed. Yes, bed.

Not thinking of the concert I've missed. Just gonna let it go. Zen Master.

Lol. I wonder what my Philosophical Marine must think of my Zen attitude???

Lol. At least he has the background. "Zen Master" is a reference from my book, Autograph Man, in case some of ya'll missed it. --> I'm not  taking up Kabalah or anything...(Now, any intelligent person should get that)

Moving on...Sarah's on the radio. How serendipitous.

I really need to stop talking to men with girlfriends, wives, kids, etc... I want what I can't have. Tragic flaw. Is there a name for that? Like signalic complex?

I should call my other Marine. He said 10.

Don't you hate it when life tempts you with what is out of reach?

Awe. movie reflection: JARHEAD....um, having a girl who just broke up with a guy overseas...yeah. maybe not the best idea. In short, it made me call up my Marine, re-affirm not all women are bitches, and told him I would always be there.

I'm hungry. Mom hasn't cooked. Boo...

So.....yeah. After the movie, J "called me out."

I'm not okay... and thats okay...

but it seems I only miss him every 3 days or so. Other days. I'm good. Today looks to be good. But today, he comes off the cell phone. along with a dozen others...

The Criteria...

"He's just not that into me" = delete.

A night out with J. amazing as always. he lights up my life. :) Today the clearing of the cell phone begins.

This little light of mine...Good Morning Universe. :-)
Amazing when all things seem right. Wake up late. French toast is being made. C, J, and my Ksig are all in good spirits with
me; meaning, J will take me out tonight. Ksig's not mad for my foul behavior last visit, and C...well, we can all admit I'd be
lost without him...C who never reads this... may I confess, as I did to him Last night, without him, I prob couldn't go back.
I mean, can I survive without him, undoubtedly. would i want to...eh, not so much. C is a constant. boys come and go. sorority
brings its challenges. but C remains. School starts and ends. C is still there. truly. when he's mad. and I've caused it. lol.
yeah. I'd rather be naked at school then deal with the guilt he can create...
Oh well, he's happy now. and that makes me happy. the 48 hour time limit has expired on my friend from the past...shame.
I liked him. but as the book says. If he likes you, he'll call.

Autograph Man. great book. done. to be gifted to my Favorite soon.
J will be picking me up tomorrow.