okay. so this is probably highly inappropriate to share but oh well. so i have this dream that me and my Marine sleep together
Not only highly unlikely but just weird. Weirdest part: blows my freaking world. Lol. okay. that was it. Suffice it to say I
woke up with a smile. ~~Just so its known, I don't dream like that so it was like Wow.
In other news: being alone on Spring Break Sucks. I hate away messages. Worse-> I hate seeing C online, knowing he's at work,
Meaning, i can't IM him anyways. grr. as he would say, "sucks and blows."
Okay. got a call from my Spring Break fast cash employer, todays my last day to be a bum
9am manana. joy. plus co-worker boy. ewe. well, i did want money.
I'm thinking 150 gross. 3 Days. not bad. Pays my credit card down to zero :)
Okay. enough chill'n. i've been waiting on the dentist to "Brb" - yeah, no.
Time to do, and make things happen :)
ABOUT DCGossipGirl
Followers
Honey I blew up the modem. Literally. This whole time, my internet was slow. just a warning. Blew up. Literally. In Smoke.
So yeah, facebook or IM me on my phone. *Shrug* Those who want, know the cell. :)
Anywho revisiting my summer music collecting. Amazingly I'm shocked at the self composed compilations, and those created by
others. Suffice it to say, I grew up a lot that summer. Still growing.
Trying still to remain content alone, not "Catch Feelings," and do. After all, I'm good. Nothings missing, right.
So yeah, facebook or IM me on my phone. *Shrug* Those who want, know the cell. :)
Anywho revisiting my summer music collecting. Amazingly I'm shocked at the self composed compilations, and those created by
others. Suffice it to say, I grew up a lot that summer. Still growing.
Trying still to remain content alone, not "Catch Feelings," and do. After all, I'm good. Nothings missing, right.
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Not So Sentimental
The Facebook...Aw the joys.
Recently I stumbled across one of my sorrors pages, and for all the groups I regret not being able to join this one might be tops: the "I'll cut you bitch" group.
I mean I'm not an angry person, and I prob would get my a$$ handed to me if i ever got into a fight, but-- LOL, doesn't it just sound cool?
anyways, was having a wonderful dia-- still kinda am, sleep has an amazing effect when you've been deprived for hmmm 38 hours?
Well over-rated, but now, IM ON SPRING BREAK!!!!!!
yes, punks across my campus are slumping through the hallways but throughout the education department, you see everyone wearing a smile. APS free for one entire week.
I slept in til 9am! 9 am, sounds insane, but omg i felt over rested, life was grand
....
speaking of grandness--had a convo with HIM the other night, in oh so many words I let him know how I felt and he let me know how he felt, and long story short
He'll be dating--and I've been dating--neither have plans on stopping, "we" won't exist, and we're both okay with that. At the highlight of sentimental-ness, He told me he loved me (awwww)....and I told him I missed him (awwww some more) and then we concluded that with the perfect will and grace convo: should I still not have anyone in 7 yrs, he'll still be "my baby's daddy."
(and to answer my sorrors questions: Will it be in a clinic? or old school method? the answer i come to find out will be the latter--? So I guess when I'm 30, not only do I not need to be worried about being without child, I'm at least guaranteed one booty call? )
Speaking of booty calls---
Employee boy--here's the novela update---drum roll please? alright alright, I have ethics, not many but I've got em. I saw him today. I told him no. Grrrr--worse thing is, ethics alone didn't contribute: in my head bounced: ethics, his non-cute factor, and me having to work with him in two days, can you say Weird?
So there it is, my pseudo- Spring Break-ness complete all by the first day of School:
HE is HIStory
Employee Boy got fired
Clovis boy, is in some other zip code, and he can stay there (although--he, was cute)
Yay.
Now my permanents:
C is dating someone, go him
J finally called, yay, he's not dead, (HOMIE CALL AGAIN)
Prophet rang up and left a voicemail that i still havent checked,
My Marine is hating life, but is getting paid Bens, so he'll deal and call me
Dentist is still utterly sweet and sends me kisses ever so often to remind me that there are good guys
Not so permanents:
The EX, who knows? C told me theres a brunette? according to the facebook he's with someone else though? hmmm. I'd be confused but don't care enough
NY Lambda: haha no love for me! after a interesting convo, I find out his chapter doesn't like my org. Can we say, ooops.
Cali "boyfriend": aw yes the precious 19 yr old, who knows maybe his other 30 yr old girlfriend kidnapped him. HAHA Surferboy, if you're reading drop me a line: home-skillet-biscuit.
Okay all BS aside: Let's talk about the juice being worth the squeeze:
Due to recent events, I'm not gonna lie, there's something else going on. I don't know quite what it is, but I like it. Whatever it is or isn't, I'm just gonna "go with it."
I know no one has the slightest idea what I'm talking about right now, but thats okay....my journal, my perogitive to be abstract.
I'm just not trying to kill it this time. But....to ease everyone--->
I'm happy. I still hold to being good alone is better than being not good with a lover.
I am responsible for my happiness and I'm doing pretty damn good.
But, if someone wanted to share that occasionally, --> yeah, I'd like that.
Recently I stumbled across one of my sorrors pages, and for all the groups I regret not being able to join this one might be tops: the "I'll cut you bitch" group.
I mean I'm not an angry person, and I prob would get my a$$ handed to me if i ever got into a fight, but-- LOL, doesn't it just sound cool?
anyways, was having a wonderful dia-- still kinda am, sleep has an amazing effect when you've been deprived for hmmm 38 hours?
Well over-rated, but now, IM ON SPRING BREAK!!!!!!
yes, punks across my campus are slumping through the hallways but throughout the education department, you see everyone wearing a smile. APS free for one entire week.
I slept in til 9am! 9 am, sounds insane, but omg i felt over rested, life was grand
....
speaking of grandness--had a convo with HIM the other night, in oh so many words I let him know how I felt and he let me know how he felt, and long story short
He'll be dating--and I've been dating--neither have plans on stopping, "we" won't exist, and we're both okay with that. At the highlight of sentimental-ness, He told me he loved me (awwww)....and I told him I missed him (awwww some more) and then we concluded that with the perfect will and grace convo: should I still not have anyone in 7 yrs, he'll still be "my baby's daddy."
(and to answer my sorrors questions: Will it be in a clinic? or old school method? the answer i come to find out will be the latter--? So I guess when I'm 30, not only do I not need to be worried about being without child, I'm at least guaranteed one booty call? )
Speaking of booty calls---
Employee boy--here's the novela update---drum roll please? alright alright, I have ethics, not many but I've got em. I saw him today. I told him no. Grrrr--worse thing is, ethics alone didn't contribute: in my head bounced: ethics, his non-cute factor, and me having to work with him in two days, can you say Weird?
So there it is, my pseudo- Spring Break-ness complete all by the first day of School:
HE is HIStory
Employee Boy got fired
Clovis boy, is in some other zip code, and he can stay there (although--he, was cute)
Yay.
Now my permanents:
C is dating someone, go him
J finally called, yay, he's not dead, (HOMIE CALL AGAIN)
Prophet rang up and left a voicemail that i still havent checked,
My Marine is hating life, but is getting paid Bens, so he'll deal and call me
Dentist is still utterly sweet and sends me kisses ever so often to remind me that there are good guys
Not so permanents:
The EX, who knows? C told me theres a brunette? according to the facebook he's with someone else though? hmmm. I'd be confused but don't care enough
NY Lambda: haha no love for me! after a interesting convo, I find out his chapter doesn't like my org. Can we say, ooops.
Cali "boyfriend": aw yes the precious 19 yr old, who knows maybe his other 30 yr old girlfriend kidnapped him. HAHA Surferboy, if you're reading drop me a line: home-skillet-biscuit.
Okay all BS aside: Let's talk about the juice being worth the squeeze:
Due to recent events, I'm not gonna lie, there's something else going on. I don't know quite what it is, but I like it. Whatever it is or isn't, I'm just gonna "go with it."
I know no one has the slightest idea what I'm talking about right now, but thats okay....my journal, my perogitive to be abstract.
I'm just not trying to kill it this time. But....to ease everyone--->
I'm happy. I still hold to being good alone is better than being not good with a lover.
I am responsible for my happiness and I'm doing pretty damn good.
But, if someone wanted to share that occasionally, --> yeah, I'd like that.
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Sentimental
Congratulations:
Spring 2004, "Los Cinco Sentidos"
#1 "A"
#2 "F"
#3 "P"
#4 "F"
#5 "S"
Happy 1 year Anniversary!!
"S"
Spring 2004, "Los Cinco Sentidos"
#1 "A"
#2 "F"
#3 "P"
#4 "F"
#5 "S"
Happy 1 year Anniversary!!
"S"
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You can tell it's March when...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
one old love
she can imagine
going back to...
and one who reminds
her how far she has come...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
enough money within her
control to move out and
rent a place of her own
even if she never wants
to or needs to...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
something perfect to wear if
the employer or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour.
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a youth she's content
to leave behind....
a past juicy enough that
she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a set of screwdrivers, a
cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
one friend who always makes
her laugh ... and one who lets her cry...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a good piece of furniture
not previously owned by anyone
else in her family...
eight matching plates, wine
glasses with stems, and a recipe
for a meal that will make her
guests feel honored.
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE
a feeling of control over
her destiny...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without
losing herself.
HOW TO QUIT A JOB,
BREAK UP WITH A LOVER,
AND CONFRONT A FRIEND
WITHOUT RUINING THE FRIENDSHIP...
when to try harder ... and
WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the
length of her calves, the width
of her hips, or the nature of her
parents....
that her childhood may not
have been perfect...but it's over...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't
do for love or more...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone ... even if
she doesn't like it...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't
take it personally...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't
accomplish ina day...
a month...and a year.
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FM Cacique
Subject: For Women from a Man
Especially for the Women
1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want
you, nothing can make him stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
4. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not
meant to be.
5. Slower is better.
6. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you
truly happy.
7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as
you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't
mistreat a friend.
8. Don't settle.
9. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
10. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be
mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
11. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
12. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different
women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he
treat you any differently?
13. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
14. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something
bothers you, speak up.
15. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you
later.
16. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
17. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you
are...Even if he has more education or a better job.
18. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more
nothing less.
19. Never let a man define who you are.
20. Never borrow someone else's man.
21. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
22. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
23. All men are NOT dogs.
24. You should not be the one doing all the bending...Compromise is
a two way street.
25. You need time to heal between relationships...There is nothing
cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new
relationship.
26. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...A
relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... Look for someone
complimentary, not supplementary.
27. Dating is fun...Even if he doesn't turn out tobe Mr. Right.
28. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you
are and you're always readily available to him- he takes it for
granted.
29. Never move into his mother's house.
30. Never co-sign for a man. (Hallelujah, thank you Jesus!)
31. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that
you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Women, pass this on. You'll make someone smile, another re-think her
choices and another woman prepare. Guys, send this to the women you love
and the men who have to learn how to love women right. They say it
takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day
to love them, and an entire life to forget them
Subject: For Women from a Man
Especially for the Women
1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want
you, nothing can make him stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
4. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not
meant to be.
5. Slower is better.
6. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you
truly happy.
7. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as
you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't
mistreat a friend.
8. Don't settle.
9. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
10. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be
mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
11. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
12. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different
women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he
treat you any differently?
13. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
14. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something
bothers you, speak up.
15. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you
later.
16. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
17. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you
are...Even if he has more education or a better job.
18. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more
nothing less.
19. Never let a man define who you are.
20. Never borrow someone else's man.
21. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
22. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
23. All men are NOT dogs.
24. You should not be the one doing all the bending...Compromise is
a two way street.
25. You need time to heal between relationships...There is nothing
cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new
relationship.
26. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...A
relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... Look for someone
complimentary, not supplementary.
27. Dating is fun...Even if he doesn't turn out tobe Mr. Right.
28. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you
are and you're always readily available to him- he takes it for
granted.
29. Never move into his mother's house.
30. Never co-sign for a man. (Hallelujah, thank you Jesus!)
31. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that
you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Women, pass this on. You'll make someone smile, another re-think her
choices and another woman prepare. Guys, send this to the women you love
and the men who have to learn how to love women right. They say it
takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day
to love them, and an entire life to forget them
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32 Hours. no excuses . but now as lunch gets made 20 min nap before the next 24
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