Clovis boy. He calls at 3am and tells me he loves me. yeah. did i mention he has a girlfriend.

One Flaw In Women 

By the time the Lord made woman, <o:p></o:p>

He was into his sixth day of working overtime. <o:p></o:p>

An angel appeared and said, <o:p></o:p>

"Why are you spending so much time on this one?" <o:p></o:p>

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? <o:p></o:p>

She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, <o:p></o:p>

have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable <o:p></o:p>

and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, <o:p></o:p>

have a lap that can hold four children at one time, <o:p></o:p>

have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart <o:p></o:p>

-and she will do everything <o:p></o:p>

with only two hands." <o:p></o:p>

The angel was astounded at the requirements. <o:p></o:p>

"Only two hands!? No way! <o:p></o:p>

And that's just on the standard model? <o:p></o:p>

That's too much work for one day. <o:p></o:p>

Wait until tomorrow to finish." <o:p></o:p>

But I won't," the Lord protested. <o:p></o:p>

"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. <o:p></o:p>

She already heals herself when she is sick <o:p></o:p>

AND can work 18 hour days." <o:p></o:p>

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. <o:p></o:p>

"But you have made her so soft, Lord." <o:p></o:p>

"She is soft," the Lord agreed, <o:p></o:p>

"but I have also made her tough. <o:p></o:p>

You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish." <o:p></o:p>

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. <o:p></o:p>

The Lord replied, <o:p></o:p>

"Not only will she be able to think, <o:p></o:p>

she will be able to reason and negotiate." <o:p></o:p>

The angel then noticed something, <o:p></o:p>

and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. <o:p></o:p>

"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. <o:p></o:p>

I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one." <o:p></o:p>

"That's not a leak," <o:p></o:p>

the Lord corrected, <o:p></o:p>

"that's a tear!" <o:p></o:p>

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked. <o:p></o:p>

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, <o:p></o:p>

her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, <o:p></o:p>

her loneliness, her grief and her pride." <o:p></o:p>

The angel was impressed. <o:p></o:p>

"You are a genius, Lord. <o:p></o:p>

You thought of everything! <o:p></o:p>

Woman is truly amazing." <o:p></o:p>

And she is! <o:p></o:p>

Women have strengths that amaze men. <o:p></o:p>

They bear hardships and they carry burdens, <o:p></o:p>

but they hold happiness, <o:p></o:p>

love and joy. <o:p></o:p>

They smile when they want to scream. <o:p></o:p>

They sing when they want to cry. <o:p></o:p>

They cry when they are happy <o:p></o:p>

and laugh when they are nervous. <o:p></o:p>

They fight for what they believe in. <o:p></o:p>

They stand up to injustice. <o:p></o:p>

They don't take "no" for an answer <o:p></o:p>

when they believe there is a better solution. <o:p></o:p>

They go without so their family can have. <o:p></o:p>

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. <o:p></o:p>

They love unconditionally. <o:p></o:p>

They cry when their children excel <o:p></o:p>

and cheer when their friends get awards. <o:p></o:p>

They are happy when they hear about <o:p></o:p>

a birth or a wedding. <o:p></o:p>

<pstyle ="text-align: center; font-family: arial;" align="center">Their hearts break when a friend dies. <o:p></o:p>

They grieve at the loss of a family member, <o:p></o:p>

yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. <o:p></o:p>

They know that a hug and a kiss <o:p></o:p>

can heal a broken heart. <o:p></o:p>

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. <o:p></o:p>

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you <o:p></o:p>

to show how much they care about you. <o:p></o:p>

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. <o:p></o:p>

They bring joy, hope and love. <o:p></o:p>

<fontcolor ="maroon" size="1">They have compassion and ideals. <o:p></o:p>

They give moral support to their family and friends. <o:p></o:p>

Women have vital things to say and everything to give. <o:p></o:p>

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, <o:p></o:p>

IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

Day 2: Productivity again. Handeling what I need to handle, keeping out of trouble til the weekend, and packing a suitcase.

(Hmmm. There were some JM lyrics about home being where you put your suitcase down. It suddenly makes a lot of sense... I should go look those up, or maybe someone can enlighten us. Just a random thought.)

Calling my Marine shortly.  C is doing pretty cool from the one time I've spoken to him.  I know nothing of his personal life, and to be honest its better that way.

Speaking of bigger and better things. Clovis manana. I'm trying to get up the courage to talk to clovis boy. but as my East Coast girls would say....i'ma escared.

well marine must be attended to. then clovis. then NY. then if time permits, cali. lol. but really all i want is a place to call home, and a boy to call my own.

Day 1: productive. woke up sad realizing my spring break would begin and i could spend it alone. ten minutes pass and then I
remember today is one day closer to friday. one day closer to clovis. It's a band-aid, I know. In the end I choose to be happy

"the talk"

In brevity--
I talked, He listened.
I cried, He left.

Everything else is just details isn't it?
 
Perhaps not. Perhaps I should mention I cried but then stopped.
As in, as much as I wanted to make Him comprehend what it means to feel used, disrespected, etc...I realized He didn't get it. and He wasn't going to, and He probably never will. and after realizing this. It almost seemed okay.
So here I am. Not crying. Gonna do my homework. Going to go out tommorrow night as rebound therapy asigned by house mate. Hoping to get some studying done before hand. Zim my home away from home :)

as i cried-or didn't cry- on Thursday of last week. I realize I couldn't have put it any better than when i told my line sister, "It's like Pledging all over again. My whole world has been turned upside down. Feeling bad about it won't help. Nothing will.
I still have task after task to complete. All I can do is Do."

Bitter vengence acted out upon. wrong yes. feeling guilty not yet