just when i think im gonna tell a story, HE IM's....and then what....like an idiot, there i go

no particuliar reason for this song, doesnt express my feelings or emotions towards anyone, just found it, liked it, thought i'd throw it up here, two hours later, one fight and make up session later, we're still IM'ing
Highlife 
Counting Crows
Album: This Desert Life

All my friends got flowers in their eyes
But I got none this season
All of last years blooms have gone and died
Time doesn't give a reason
Hey baby, do you ask yourself sometimes
What you need to be forgiven?
Everything that you've ever done wrong
Is the reason that I'm driven
Straight to you
Waiting here for you
Wanting to tell you
How I get my ends and my beginnings mixed up too
Just the way you do
Thought if I told you
You might want to stay for just another day or two
Waiting for the trains that just never come
Beginning to believe in
the disappearing nature of the people we have been
We have begun to change into the worst kind of people
So unkind
Oh apologies, no apologies, this apology
Doesn't describe the way it feels to feel for you
Waiting here for you
Wanting to tell you
How I find myself slowly disappearing too
Just the way you do
Thought if I told you
You might want to help me to remain with you
I just wanna stay for a little while
I wanna stay for a little while
There's a night life falling down on me
I just feel like a change
Beneath the sun in the summer,
a sea of flowers won't bloom without the rain
But oh, this desert life, this high life
Here at the dying end of the day
I wasn't made for this scene baby
But I was made in this scene
And baby it's just my way
I don't wanna go home alone, I wanna come on home to you
Waiting here for you
Wanting to tell you
How I line my sky with all the silver I can use
Just the way you do
Thought if I told you

"True friends are those who walk in when everyone else has walked out. "
~Or~
"A friend is the person who believes in you, when you fail to Believe in Yourself."

Thanks you friends...
I know you see the tears I give no reason for, and the sleep I never have...
We all have choices, and
"Life is a game of pattern and chance, those who play well will win."
In the words of JM, and the mantra of Someone I respect, miss, and hope to see soon:
I refuse to believe that my life will be an endless strand me inconsistancies

It's been said: You learn some thing new everyday. today for example, I learned the paper boy delivers the paper at 5am.
"The Talk" / continuation of said Talk has -Here's redundancy- has continued.
I'm not sure how I feel. but after a call to re-assure my safety, I'm going
To bed with a smile .

You know you're a teacher when you had a crazy friday night, and when you wake up not hung over like you should be, but
thinking of art projects and "Comfort mechanisms" to help your children succeed.
Omg. another random dream about Him. Funny thing is I wake up from these dreams shocked.
I don't think i finished last night i was so tired but the night despite its problems ended well. C as always helps me find my
Smile. We'll be going to a show on February 15. I get to meet again another famous L. the world and It's coincidences.
2 Parties and more drinking to occur. as my head is pounding I don't know how much i'll partake of the latter. sometime, and
somehow, i have to make time for C tonight too. don't know if I can make it happen.
In that respect, It's 9:30-I'm going back to bed.
Oh. before i forget, nice encounter with one of the boys in blue. everyone present had alcohol in their system so i'm hoping
See being a strong believer in shaping my own reality has paid off. :-)
Everything I want and have worked for seems to be coming full circle. Again, this being in control thing-Bomb.

"He" who is not the boyfriend, while not approved has received a very large honor unbeknownst to HIM, he has been present now
for lambda-ness and given the role of picture taker. a task usually assigned to "Boyfriends."
Up and down night but ended with a large drinking tab.

In the famous words of JM: "I'm never speaking up again."
So... in an effort to get girl advice, i've been talking to a co-worker about my luv life.
Ofcourse, small world being what it is. she tells me today I find out she's known HIM longer than I have.
So...yeah. "My stupid mouth"

Comment from Four: as I ask her to set aside a fundraiser for me:
"I will make sure to set aside a box of the juiciest, most deliciously-dipped strawberries for your friend-slash-friend-with-benefits-slash-boytoy-slash-whatever, a.k.a. <Insert HIS name here>"
Now thats why I love my girl, always keeping it real. LOL.
it was just too on point not to add in... love you!!!! til i have time..."the other half of the friend slash friend with benefits every time the moon is full slash i'm the best thing he's got so hell get used to it slash on call booty call cuz i like to get mine but yeah busy ass grad student with no life aint seen my friends for weeks cuz i go to the gym at six and dont come home till nine from class and work slash lazy bug-a-boo thats wasting her time typing when she should be reading sista"