If Lucy Fell...the flick of the past, and present.

ashes to ashes, dust to dust. seeing the pain of loss, always implores people to be better than what they are.
How is it that i remain so set in my carefree ways, astonished me.
I remain the picture of pulled together, but i'm learning fast...It's all PR. Perception is not always reality, and what
lays in the periphery while far away, may be the surest goal i have.

The time for nobility has come, and as is proper, I will play the dutiful girlfriend. Undeniably, my mind wanders to what
could and may be, but as my perfect world is one of shadows, I wait it out.
"One of these days, someone is gonna walk into your life, and make you realize why it didn't work with anyone else."

Days go by...

The summer is near, and school has ended.

Work is only 8 more days...

Moving out is only 16 days away.

Florida, and California.

 

Mr. Boots calls, and I can't help but admit, he makes me undone....

J---I'm a month from you. hope all is well til then, if not I'm only a phone call away.

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I'll love you forever,

I'll like you for always,

As long as I'm living,

my baby you'll be.

The Defiant....

My silence has been at the benefit of an amazing new addition to my life....

22 Divas of Chaos now call me "Sister" and I am a better person for having had the experiance....

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In non-"What the hell is she talking about?"-news:

Mr. Boots has emerged yet again into my life....

He calls, he writes, some may even surmise that he cares....hmmmmm, nah.

(Or at least so I keep telling myself.....)

 

Is it wrong to miss him?

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I passed my teacher competancy and skills test, now all thats left to do is be hired.

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I think a friend is trying to tell me BAD news about my boyfriend....

Like BAD news.... that or he still wants me....one of the two....

but recieveing a text: "Have you broken up with your boyfriend in the past week?", is not at all encouraging. ESPECIALLY when I know he's been with his ex....

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Speaking of ex's....chill time with my ex, manana!!! Oh yes...Downtown, my girls, and my ex.....lol....Unlikely combo, but the ex always make me have fun.

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Current....the current boyfriend has been good to me. Gotta admit, he's been everything a man should be. dependable. reliable. He picks me up from the airport, and he makes dinner on Thursdays.

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This just in....manana is gonna be crazy, 3 ex boyfriends, all my sorority, and no boyfriend in sight....LORD bring me home....