Got daddy's place to myself, a full bar, and permission to throw a party..,so why am I staying out of trouble?
Perhaps, i really have grown up?
Except, i think grown ups move-in with their significant others, not the guy they met two weeks ago? hmmm.
And I thought September would be hard.

Its 5 am and for the past hour plus i've second guessed my last 24. I miss my boyfriend desperately and yet, know there is no way he can help.
Little pink pills are my sleepy escape, and yet even they offer no solace. Pray i get out of this one.

One third of a fifth later...
To be blunt, mexico wasn't as fun as it could be, but unfortunately, I made up for it the following thursday...
Between a high school friend and a new friend, i somehow well, literally ended up.
Not in a bad way...but. Well.maybe that's what's bad about it.
In current events. Life in the middle of nowhere may lead to a car payment.
Missing a life i used to know, but so far i am trapped in the one i got. Wish me luck. ;)

Florida in T minus 36 hours. Cultural Festival in T minus 9 days. Me minus the unrelenting fear that my boyfriend will not be
happy when 'this' is all over...mmmm, wait for it.

Care O'Meter going down?

How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat, after the body's bliss?
How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound
Of a voice you'd know anywhere?

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood, after the body rush?
How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart
It's a crime to fall in love again?

Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have some advice to give,
How to be insensitive

Selective Lyrics, Insensitive, Jann Arden

Confused, conflicted, and yet completely okay...The next few weeks will be telling, but once over...relief. 4 more days til
the begining of the end. Or maybe, its just the begining of the begining. Or maybe, its just another moment in time that will
pass like so many others, and become inconsequential in time. Like last summer
or the summer before. lol. or the summer before...perhaps, inconsequential is the wrong term...even shadows of memories still
make themselves present in my dreams.

Ponderings

As my summer is well on its way, some concerned freinds have checked the "journal" to try to gather where in the hell I went.

You're right, I'm gone. New destination to be determined.

Here's the Haps:

House Sitting in Corrales: May 27-June 3

Baby Sitting in Corrales: June 3-14

Florida: June 15-21

Road Trip to San Diego, and then on to..... (it's official, I'm going): June 21-25.

In Albuquerque June 25-30: Plans to be determined

Road Trip to Las Cruces/El Paso: June 30- July

July 3rd:  Warp Tour: Las Cruces NM

July 4th: Family

July 5th - July 30th: Plans to be determined. My "El Paso" crew promises, "a very large Margarita," a chance to practice "cage and bar dancing", as well as a renewl of my "pimp licence"--which I have been told is not under revoction, as previously thought ;-)

July 31st is Pipsqueaks birthday.

August 1st I must return to Albuquerque, have some living arrangement, get my stuff out of storage and pretend to resume a normal NON-Summer life....

August 8th: First Day Back at Work---BOOO.

Finally: Sept Something: Mr. Boots comes back into town. "Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Someone wrote recently:

Sometimes absence is the sincerest form of flattery.

Here's hoping.