Dreams are supposedly an interpretation of our current stresses,... right?
Thus, when I wake up from being "saved" from death, by none other than the invisible presence of Jesus Christ, I should just shake it off as, --"you really drank too much Riesling lat night hon, hon."
But I didn't. Well, I did. But who in their right mind DREAMS of JESUS?
Me, apparently.
Now this is beyond wild.
A car I am somehow "driving" but not in control of begins to fall off of a major highway. In my seconds of peril, I am smiling not concerned, and look out the window, as if angels are carrying me, and recite some mantra that I can not remember verbatim, but is the equivalent of
"Praise be to Jesus, I believe. I will be saved."
--Now, I was raised Catholic....So the mind I'm sure reached back for that one....BUT C'MON!
JESUS! Jesus the Man, Jesus? Are you kidding me.
Well, in the dream --like some car racing game -where if you totally wreck or fly off the highway, you're transported back to where you were right before the wreck.... this is what occurs.
"Praise be to Jesus, I believe. I will be saved."
I haven't gone to a service in (HAHA) God knows how long? but maybe just maybe I should start?
I don't EVEN drive!!!! I'm long ago gave up the Catholic Church. I have often considered my copy of the Tao of Pooh my soul source to religion. But there it is....dreaming of the Man. They say God works in mysterious ways....I think so does excessive drinking. Nonetheless, Jesus.
My epiphany: it's like having a superstar shake your hand.
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Suitible and Yet Altered Quote
Do you think I relish the fact that I have to act like Mary Sunshine
24/7 to be considered a lady? I am the Marcia fucking Brady of DC's East Side, and sometimes I want to kill myself.
How did this get on my Ipod?
"Why Should I Be Sad"
They couldn't believe I did it
But I was so committed
My life was so restricted for you
I just dove inside it blind
Couldn't see what swam inside
Thought that'd be romantic for you
Exchanged my vows
And said it all
Woman, let's prepare to fall
Even, screaming did it for you
(Remember?)
My friends said you would play me
But I just said they're crazy
While I was crying, praying
Was it true?
Why should I be sad?
Heaven knows
From the stupid freaking things that you do
(Stupid freaking things)
Why should I get mad? Feel sad?
Who knows?
Just take it all
As a sign that we're through
Goodbye
It's time for me to move along
(Goodbye)
It's time for me to get it on
(OK)
I'm tired of singing sad songs
(All right)
It's time for me
(...... let's go)
They couldn't believe I did it
But I was so committed
My life was so restricted for you
I just dove inside it blind
Couldn't see what swam inside
Thought that'd be romantic for you
Exchanged my vows
And said it all
Woman, let's prepare to fall
Even, screaming did it for you
(Remember?)
My friends said you would play me
But I just said they're crazy
While I was crying, praying
Was it true?
Why should I be sad?
Heaven knows
From the stupid freaking things that you do
(Stupid freaking things)
Why should I get mad? Feel sad?
Who knows?
Just take it all
As a sign that we're through
Goodbye
It's time for me to move along
(Goodbye)
It's time for me to get it on
(OK)
I'm tired of singing sad songs
(All right)
It's time for me
(...... let's go)
Leo Horoscope
Relationship issues just won't go away; they follow you around these days like a puppy dog nipping at your leg. But these teeth can hurt if you let them, especially if you try to bury unresolved emotional pain from your past. Embrace your shortcomings by accepting where you are in life, but don't try to change your current attitude by rewriting your history. Write your future instead.
...
I know I've been unfaithful
I know I've been ungrateful
I know you think it's over
But I know how I feel about you
So please please hold me
Please please be with me
And please please hold me
Please,please dream of me
I know I've been unstable
And I know I've been unapproachable
‘Cos I think you are unavoidable
And I hope you love unconditional
So please please hold me
Please please be with me
And please please hold me
Please please dream of me
But if you go
Please tell me so
I too can go away
Download Watershed
- Unfaithful music Back State Side
Where'd You Go lyrics
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Heartbreaker Lyrics
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Heartbreaker Lyrics
1 down 4 to go
Oral Arguments, at the court room, in front of a Phili judge....not life threatning.
Brief submission for Motion to dismiss....well, ...better than before?
Legal Writing grade??? Dear God, please don't let me fail.....
All I know is of my 21 credits....I can only control 17 now.
If law school doesn't kill me....
or....if it does, .....and it might.....I now know how to divest property?
So much for holding out...
A phone call from a friend at school informed me that she had talked about me to one of her friends...."I told her how proud I was of you...you're really getting it together"....
Uh-huh.
If getting it together, feels like I never have it together, than damn, am I on top of it now...
I did a master chart....In sum, here's what my life looks like:
There are 24 hours in a day...IF I sleep 8, that means there are 16 hours left.
If I subtract my commute (going and coming=3), then I'm left with 13 hours.
If I subtract the hours I'm in class each day (3), then I'm left with 10.
If I subtract an 2 hours to total my showering, eating lunch breakfast, and dinner, and any other "personal" distractions I might have...like...I don't know breathing???, I'm left with 8 hours a day....
8 hours is all i really have to study....technically, unless I don't sleep....or eat...or shower...but the last is ewe.
Here's the crazy part....say I have 8 hours per week day (M-F) (8 x5), that equals 40 hours per week, and if I only study during the weekend....(lets pretend I study while I shower--because anyone who knows me, knows I DO read while eating....) that would be the 16 hours....
(16 x 2), totaling 32 hours....
40 + 32 =72.....
Guess how many hours per week I'm supposes to study???
1 hr per every every 10 pages
1.5 hours for every 10 pages needing to be outlined....
1 hour per exam per course topic (=5)
and 10 hours every week for research....
I could scare you with the page amounts...lets not....
Now, I've done the math and it totals to 89 hours per week.
89 HOURS PER WEEK.
Long and short....I am about to take out another loan to move near the campus...
(Apparently, the librarian didn't get the memo that 1L's should be allowed to just sleep in the library...)
*sigh... On the plus side Super Tuesday and Valentines came and went; and despite the cat knocking over the beautiful roses the boys in my class gave me [a truly special gesture]....and me slipping in the ICE that I am not at all accustomed to...I enjoyed it quite a bit.
In that spirit...a few lines from the movie that reminds me about love....
Uh-huh.
If getting it together, feels like I never have it together, than damn, am I on top of it now...
I did a master chart....In sum, here's what my life looks like:
There are 24 hours in a day...IF I sleep 8, that means there are 16 hours left.
If I subtract my commute (going and coming=3), then I'm left with 13 hours.
If I subtract the hours I'm in class each day (3), then I'm left with 10.
If I subtract an 2 hours to total my showering, eating lunch breakfast, and dinner, and any other "personal" distractions I might have...like...I don't know breathing???, I'm left with 8 hours a day....
8 hours is all i really have to study....technically, unless I don't sleep....or eat...or shower...but the last is ewe.
Here's the crazy part....say I have 8 hours per week day (M-F) (8 x5), that equals 40 hours per week, and if I only study during the weekend....(lets pretend I study while I shower--because anyone who knows me, knows I DO read while eating....) that would be the 16 hours....
(16 x 2), totaling 32 hours....
40 + 32 =72.....
Guess how many hours per week I'm supposes to study???
1 hr per every every 10 pages
1.5 hours for every 10 pages needing to be outlined....
1 hour per exam per course topic (=5)
and 10 hours every week for research....
I could scare you with the page amounts...lets not....
Now, I've done the math and it totals to 89 hours per week.
89 HOURS PER WEEK.
Long and short....I am about to take out another loan to move near the campus...
(Apparently, the librarian didn't get the memo that 1L's should be allowed to just sleep in the library...)
*sigh... On the plus side Super Tuesday and Valentines came and went; and despite the cat knocking over the beautiful roses the boys in my class gave me [a truly special gesture]....and me slipping in the ICE that I am not at all accustomed to...I enjoyed it quite a bit.
In that spirit...a few lines from the movie that reminds me about love....
- Hi.
- You're trying to kill me, woman.
- Uh-uh.
- Mm-hmm.
- Mmm...
- Mmm...
-I need rest.
I need food
so I can regain my strength.
Okay, what do you want?
Umm... umm...
some pancakes.
Okay.
And bacon.
- Okay.
- And some chicken.
---
which leads to this...8 days,...I lasted eight days without checking in on the world that
moves on without me....8 days without being reminded that vital organs
look like the desert sands I left...As if I needed to be reminded?
--
Finally, a class mate wrote: I wonder what the body of Christ is, because Jesus must be the soul.
Leo
Feelings that were tying your nerves in knots may be released dramatically today. It's time for you to breathe a deep sigh of relief as you are set free from an impossible situation. Taking responsibility for your life is surely a step in the right direction, but it doesn't mean that you can avoid serious long-term issues. Graciously accept what's on your plate while you work to improve your position.
By Rick Levine
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Rick Levine is my stalker....
Ash Wednesday/ Deee-leted....
In recognition of Ash Wednesday....Catholics around the globe choose today to embark on a 40 day trial of Change. Some try to "abstain" --giving up, coke, sweets, red meat.
Others, embark to do something new. Add prayer or musical enrichment to their daily lives.
I think, the hope is to remind ourselves that this is a world in which we make choices. For better or worse. My Torts professor would have me say that this is a good time to be thinking about we are doing politically....but lets not go there today.
Being more spiritual than religious, and enjoying my self-proclaimed Taoism, one would thing that today wouldn't be that signifigant for someone like me. But it is.
Maybe it was that I was raised Catholic and still cling to the rituals in my life that make sense. Maybe like my Torts teachers suggested, I'm using today as an opportunity to check in with myself. Its probably both, combined with recent frustrating events.
The events I won't go into, because now ever weary of being just another thing held against me, I plead the 5th. Suffice it to say, I am comfortable with my choices, my past, and the memories I have; and am now seeing a future that broadens my future to a point in which I may no longer have to depend upon my past.
Some call it closure, others call it preventative. Whatever you call it, action is still needed to sustain the thought.
(Lol....that was legalease for "if youre gonna do it, stop thinking about it, and just do it")
So I did it. I deleted old accounts and got rid of every link....electronically, if not emotionally. The Myspace is gone. My AOL is gone. All the letters and emotional safety nets that once told me I meant something at sometime.
Truth is. I can be happy in the now. Well....maybe not "now" --lets face it, I'm a 1L in Lawschool. Life sucks. But. I can be happy. I have good good friends, that are girls. Lol. imagine that. I have a wonderful family, that supports me. I have a cat that despite never seeing me, still loves me--even if I am doing miserably in law school.
And despite never ever putting an even more personal account of my life on this thing, for fear that I might regret it....Lol, I do have one.
Just like the links and accounts that takes a very small effort to prove to myself everyone else has moved on in their lives....I guess its time I moved on with mine.
Still debating how long to leave this cite up. It seems pretty well disclaimed....so we'll see.
Have a Good Ash Wednesday Little Universe.
Others, embark to do something new. Add prayer or musical enrichment to their daily lives.
I think, the hope is to remind ourselves that this is a world in which we make choices. For better or worse. My Torts professor would have me say that this is a good time to be thinking about we are doing politically....but lets not go there today.
Being more spiritual than religious, and enjoying my self-proclaimed Taoism, one would thing that today wouldn't be that signifigant for someone like me. But it is.
Maybe it was that I was raised Catholic and still cling to the rituals in my life that make sense. Maybe like my Torts teachers suggested, I'm using today as an opportunity to check in with myself. Its probably both, combined with recent frustrating events.
The events I won't go into, because now ever weary of being just another thing held against me, I plead the 5th. Suffice it to say, I am comfortable with my choices, my past, and the memories I have; and am now seeing a future that broadens my future to a point in which I may no longer have to depend upon my past.
Some call it closure, others call it preventative. Whatever you call it, action is still needed to sustain the thought.
(Lol....that was legalease for "if youre gonna do it, stop thinking about it, and just do it")
So I did it. I deleted old accounts and got rid of every link....electronically, if not emotionally. The Myspace is gone. My AOL is gone. All the letters and emotional safety nets that once told me I meant something at sometime.
Truth is. I can be happy in the now. Well....maybe not "now" --lets face it, I'm a 1L in Lawschool. Life sucks. But. I can be happy. I have good good friends, that are girls. Lol. imagine that. I have a wonderful family, that supports me. I have a cat that despite never seeing me, still loves me--even if I am doing miserably in law school.
And despite never ever putting an even more personal account of my life on this thing, for fear that I might regret it....Lol, I do have one.
Just like the links and accounts that takes a very small effort to prove to myself everyone else has moved on in their lives....I guess its time I moved on with mine.
Still debating how long to leave this cite up. It seems pretty well disclaimed....so we'll see.
Have a Good Ash Wednesday Little Universe.
Playing hookey
Ever feel like you were meant for something, [to be/] someone more?
Feeling Seth Horan: give him a listen. http://www.reverbnation.com/tunepak/artist_29576
Playing Hookey in an attempt to avoid the inevitable melt-down that comes with 21 credits.....My property teacher missed me though; so, at least I'm a star student in Someone's eyes.
Wonder how long until I slip into just being "something pretty."
Just a thought. Super Tuesday is coming...Ever wonder what gets more advertising? Super Bowl or Super Tuesday? I mean think if Victoria Secret got behind Hillary or if E-trade behind Obama.....
I'm still on the fence...."I am not procrastinating....I just haven't found one yet."
ha ha --Rick Levine stop spying on me
Daily Horoscope for Leo
Going over old relationship territory can be quite comfortable, but not exactly what you want at this time. You are tired of the same old story, yet it may have to play out one more time before you can retire it and move on. Stay cool; there's something important you must learn before entering into the next phase.
By Rick Levine
Monday, January 28, 2008
Interview Day
My morning can best be summed up as "bitter cold." It is cold, and I am bitter about this. I'm running late because the cat decided to chase a bird into the house. I have no stockings on, which makes the morning colder, but I am looking quite yummy in my black interview suit. It is called my black interview suit, because it was purchased, dry cleaned and only worn for this occasion. I hate my black interview suit. It is reminiscient of funeral attire. Black, solomn, boring. Not at all like my grey suit. My grey suit is a power suit. Grey with pink pinstripe. Add pearls, and I look like a girl with style and class. But today I'm in the black suit. The politically correct, I have no style, my ego has died, black suit. Another reason to be bitter, on this bitter cold morning.
Leo
Others are trying to tell you something, but it's hard for you to get the meaning behind their words. Your recent optimism has been your guiding light, even in the face of very difficult circumstances. Don't lose hope in spite of emotional obstacles. And don't gloss over the difficulties, even if this would make your present situation temporarily easier to handle. Your life is enriched as you face up to the reality of what's happening.
By Rick Levine
Grey January listening to Blue October
You must be broken
By a thousand ways of wasting time
Get to the point
And off a hundred lines a week
No need to change my mind
A cleaner shade of thinking time
But I seem to think more than I act upon most things.
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
---
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway
The clowns put on makeup for show
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening
And how the wind she blows
How the wind she blows
I want you to come closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer
Come in closer. Come in closer.
I want you to come in closer, in closer
---
I'm cramped and crawling from under the dead
I'm sick of living without you in bed
I've made mistakes that I wrote... That I read...
But now I just can't seem to be preoccupied
The heart was tossed with a black lace chain
With these hands that I write with
And the ode that I live by...
Will I ever be with you?
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
----
By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever
Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall in love with you
----
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
Do you ever wonder
How hard you hit?
You broke my thunder
God made this night for me, a silly devil in my talking
Romantic company for walking. Over and out...Over and out...
This year is the year I want to be, that silly devil in me talking
Romantic company for walking. Over and out...Over and out...